OPEN MIC - ENCORE!
July, 1999

UP-dated July 14, 1999.


INDEPENDENCE DAY

Let's celebrate America on this Independence Day

Where lives were lost for freedom

What a price to pay.


How do we show our gratitude? Do we even give it thought?

How some were lost and some were spared

in many battles fought.

Do not forget to focus on the soldiers who were brave

Who risked it all to bring you freedom

Some even to the grave.


Try not to take for granted each blessed passing day

God bless this land, this awesome land

the precious USA!

July 4, 1999

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"I Am Where People Are Free"
Emma

I am where People are free;

I am where the Grass is light green,

I am where Tree's are free to grow they're own way,

I am where the Animal's play,

I am where everything and everyone is free to be who they want

to be....That place you may only find in your heart.

So go, get lost in your thought's, for I am with you all the way!

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ABOVE THE VALLEY

I saw the winding creek

Meander through the thickets

And cow paths edging closely

To the banks at meadow's end

The paths we also walked

Across the Short Hill

Toting spelling books

And plucking flowers all the way


I saw the tractor ruts

Climbing to the Upper Place

Where only cattle congregated

Around the stacks of hay


I saw a glimpse of my own smile

AS the Radio Flyer hurled me

Airborn across the knoll

Sparing me injury once again


It is all there now

But I'm moving slower these days

The laughter yet is safely

Kept beneath the dignity of adulthood

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Homerun Kings
(A Tribute to Sammy Sosa and Mark McGwire)


England and France could not agree.

On whom was king of their country.

No two could ever share the throne.

They used their swords to be alone.


America has two kings, though.

Gracious men with lots of dough.

The kindest giants there can be.

They used their swords to help us see.

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it's been weeks since the power failure.

the VCR still flashes, screams:

"12:00"

"12:00"

"12:00"

"help me"

"help me"

"help me"

i could save it.

i could be a hero.

but i'm so fixed,

here on the couch.

i will be a hero later.

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A star shining, brightly in the sky. Sparkling like a diamond ring. Will I wish, or will I not. A piece of gold will be my pride and joy. Or world peace and happiness for ever and ever and ever and EVER.

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This was written on July 6, 1999 by Stephanie Wells

Instead of inhabiting one common place
People must divide by color and race;

When it's rejection we fear
We change how we appear;

While we claim democracy
We run a great hypocrisy;

We criticize others on how they were born
Yet despite our scorn we take the same form;

Double standards are the rules by which we live
And everyone takes and nobody gives;

The selfish and coward overshadow the brave
And even believers wonder if we'll be saved;

The ocean of fault runs far too deep
And the mountain of sin seems much too steep;

We are told all our lives it's no good to cry
Why waste the time when it's so easy to die?

In this deep hole we must cry for a rope
And while we wait for rescue we must not lose hope.

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ROSES AND WEEDS

If you don't know I'm a rose that grow out the ghetto.

People stop and stare, but I'm not the only rose there lots of us out there.

You weeds walking around thinking your bad

May be mad but beauty is only skin deep.

And it runs deep in to our people pride, before any white man have stepped on this earth.

Cause GOD give us this rebirth and we have to stand united.

So don't get mad at me well I'm playing the system as you just playa hate us.

We'll led a hand if your welling to take a stand and bloom in to something better.

Cause sooner are later the winds going to blow, and where will that leave you?

it will leave us standing

PROUD as we can be

as people forget your name in a breeze

but everyone disappears in the wind but the difference is how powerful is the force.

so make the earth shake when you died

to give people the full force of this ghetto life

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I blended myself yesterday

The juice spilt on the floor

Today I cleaned up

Now I'm alone...a chore

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THE UNKNOWN POET
Paul Demster ----- Copyright 1998

He fills your mind with words of rhyme and confusion,

Penetrating your soul with reality to create illusion,

Visions of a life never seen until you swallow the tears,

Taste the pain and become one, sharing the same fears.


Who has brought us here into this hidden, unforgotten experience?


A child has just taken the world on her back

While another watches from an emotional jail,

Unable to break from bondage of mother black

Darkness sets in, as she turns not, to see him wail.


Father why must you leave everything behind?

It's too late to prove your love with sudden sorrow,

You can't break the barriers of silence in my mind,

I stand alone, your gone and there is no tomorrow.


Mother where are you and where have you been?

Crawl out of the bottle that you call home,

Maybe you can't see through the unforgiven sin,

But he stands here in the cold, knowingly all alone.....


I call myself a poet.

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Daddy

It's been so long since he's gone away.

I wish to God he could've stayed.

What I would give to have him near.

To let him chase away my fears.

It seems as though only yesterday,

He sat with me and I would hear him say:

You'll always be my little girl,

Even when I leave this world.

But now he's gone and I'm older

the world is scary and getting colder.

I'm still waiting for him to come home,

and never again will I be alone.

But since he's in a better place

I'll never again get to see his face.

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For Anna-

There are things I don't deserve in life

Like a moment in your arms

Like your angel-kiss upon my lips

Or to keep you safe from harm

Like to look into your eyes and see

You thinking once or twice of me

To look and have the perfect view

That's when my eyes are fixed on you

Like to hold your body close to mine

And whisper in your ears

To calm all your anxieties

Or even dry your tears

I don't deserve the life you have

Or the enchanting things you do

I don't deserve a moment of your time

I don't deserve you.


David Lloyd Young

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WOMAN
by Lorie K. Walker

I am woman.

I do not roar.

I think.


I think about my life mostly.

I cry for my youth, I rejoice in my maturity.

I think about all the good and the bad in my life.

More bad than good.

Without the bad I wouldn't be a woman, I would be a girl or worse yet, a man.

I think that life is very sad in a beautiful way.


I think about my family.

I think about my daughter. In ten years will she be the strong, beautiful, and intelligent woman that I am raising her to be? Or will she take on a lesbian lover and crusade cross-country slaying all the men that have done her wrong? I think about that.

I think about my husband. In ten years will we still love to look at each other nude? Or will I be watching him sit on the couch picking his nose while glued to the t.v.? I think about that too.


I think about my friends.

Most of them have come and gone with the exception of my best friend.

I would give my life for him, would he for me?

Yes, him, real women can have men as friends.

I am a real woman.


I think about my career.

Yes Sir, please give me more work, I don't think the 12 hours that I was going to put in today is nearly enough.

My grandmother's career was staying home with her kids, I wonder what that was like?

I think about the world.

What a crazy place.

I am sad for all of the tragedy.

I am happy for quick-dry nail polish.


I think about politics.

I am sad for all of the tragedy.


I am woman.

I do not roar.

I contemplate, I love, I hate, I cry, I laugh, but mostly I think.

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MY DAY

Can I tell you how my day's been?

I woke up this morning without my usual grin

Because last you said you were leaven,

To go somewhere that I have never been.

I told you that I would wait.

Can I take my words back or is it too late?

All day I thought about you and how this is fate

That we found one another and so far it's been great.

Last night I dreamt of you.

Doing all the things that you said you would do

Once we closed this distance gap between us two

I have never done this before, but have you?

On my way to class today I saw you talking

With some guy, but it wasn't, you so I kept on walking.

And on my way home this evening, I saw you sitting

Alone in a car day dreaming about me or am I projecting?

I know you will be back to be with me real soon

But I must tell you, everyday feels like going to the moon

Remember, you promise, to spend the month of June.

With me but if not I'll be sad but it will not change my tune.

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SUMMER PLAY
(a thought,and a prayer, for mine only girl, Karen)
by Barbara Elaine Alyea

I watch her from the window,
though she doesn't know,

I watch her play and play all day,
and I watch her grow.

With dolls and dishes she has her tea,
then she runs inside to invite me.

When she puts these things aside,
she runs around the house just to hide.

By the tree with Bunny and Bear,
I can see her jungle there!

Run on and on, to the swing, she is free,
swing high, higher, she'll touch the trees.

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Walking this hard path
total darkness can't hide it -
stars burn bright tonight.

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HOPE
by S.K. Grange

Long I have looked and here it is, I've arrived.

The piled up years I'll not miss, Ive survived.

Maybe it was always there. Someplace underneath.

All the pain I had to bare to bring it with in reach.


I watch the waters swallow another friend.

Perhaps I to should have drowned.

It protected me, it saved me from my end.

This thing I found.


I'm going to climb out of this nightmarish hell.

I'm going to fight my souls descending flow.

Stand at the top of the grave into which I fell.

So long ago.


I needed a guiding light, something to throw me a rope.

I found it just in time, what I found was HOPE.

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Lovers may come and go

But my love for you will never die

A fire burning bright in my soul

My life may go on

But you will always be in my heart

As I wait and wait for your love

To caress me

to grip me

Thoughts of you inside my head

Picture-Perfect feelings

My love for you will never parish

The fire burns bright

Time may go on

But love is waiting.....

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You, my little one, amaze me and interest me so.

Every day is different with you.

Some are great, some are hard.

They are all whirlwinds of happiness, and learning for you.

I try to understand you

though no words are you able to speak.

I desperately try to decipher

your little grunts and gestures.

I watch you with wonder and joy.

You depend on me for everything;

yet want your independence so very much.

A scary thing it must be to want to run,

and cling at the same time.

I dream of what you may one day be.

Great things that you will do.

Then I too become overwhelmed at the choices

I will have to make for you.

Will they be right or wrong?

It makes me want to run,

Yet I cling to you.

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Striking The Station

Solid skies crawled across the stars,

You said: "Remember where we are."

Re-arranging, with no mystery training

Suddenly, elsewhere, lightning seed

Found a circuit, and began to bleed,

And the station was then burning.

Overhead dim clouds were turning,

And at the thunder crack,

I touched your hand

And each electric light turned black.

Now, I know, I understand.

Threading through the edging heat,

We kept our eyes and voices low.

We slipped away and felt complete,

As though our lives could freely unfold.

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Sea of Tranquillity

Only to bask in the gently lapping clear blue of this for a matter

of a minute would probably kill someone. For no matter how much they

may need it, it would already have been oil-slicked with leaks from

those who merely believe they do...

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you blame the air

you're crazy

upon wish gnawing your yield

and submissive you lye contempt

overture offering death

packing it in

your still body

you've made me a thief

now that i've taken myself back

how far did you think i'd go for you?

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The Streetlight and the Lemon Tree

They grow entwined on the corner

Lovers, they are

That streetlight and the lemon tree


I wonder, what would their child be?

A street tree? Perhaps a lemonlight?

I'm smiling now - call the laugh police!

You can't smile here, you know

Pure joy is illegal on the cul-de-sac


Oh, here comes that slow man again!

Will he want me to greet him?

I tire of waving politically correctly

I'll look down the block as he passes


There now, THAT'S a better view!

Bright little flags stirring in the breeze

The stars and stripes of suburbia

Rippling o'er the amber weeds

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LOVE HAS NO BOUNDARIES
BY SABRINA WOODALL

Love Has no boundaries, love has no limits.
Love is a dream, it has you and I in it.

Love is a circle, that surrounds us with smiles.
Love is a highway that goes on for miles.

Love is a book for only one to read.
Love is the laughter between you and me.

Love is an eagle that watches our souls.
Love is the one that want let you go.

Love has no boundaries, love has no limits.
What is love if your not in it?

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Message to Heaven

I would like to send a message to Heaven.

Ask Him when I'll finish my Sentence.

Tell me why my debt is so heavy.

Lead me please to the exit of this Prison.

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YOU'VE REALLY TURNED ME ON

IN A WAY MY COMPOSURE'S GONE

HOPE I DON'T GET CARRIED AWAY

WITH SOMETHING I DO OR SAY


ALTHOUGH YOU'RE STILL A MYSTERY

YOU'VE CAPTIVATED MY CURIOSITY

I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE FROM AFAR

WITH AN INTERNET E-MAIL STAR


YES YOUR SHINING BRIGHTLY

AND IF I'M SPEAKING TOO POETICALLY

I'M SORRY BUT THAT'S WHAT I DO

ESPECIALLY WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU


"HONEY CHILD" CAUGHT MY ATTENTION

WITHOUT RESERVATION

I KNEW SOMEHOW YOU WERE SPECIAL

A VERY UNUSUAL GAL


AS YOU KNOW I BECAME PERSISTENT

KEPT WRITING WITH DEVOTED INTENT

FINALLY YOU CAME THROUGH

AND I WAS PLEASED TO HEAR FROM YOU


AS I LEARNED OF OUR COMMON INTERESTS

YOU WERE EVERYTHING I HAD GUESSED

EVERYTHING AND MUCH MORE

I KNEW EXCITEMENT WAS IN STORE


I AGREE WE'VE GOT SOMETHING GOING

SUDDENLY IT'S MORE EXCITING

I'VE FOUND A NEW FRIEND OUT THERE

AND I THINK WE HAVE MUCH TO SHARE.

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" Imagine "

Last night into darkness I was thrown.

My colors & shapes

gone,

that I had known.

You'd think I'd be mad & so very sad,

To have lost all the beauty

That I have had.

Then a whisper was blown

into my ear;

"Your beauty's inside

It's still right here."

It's not what you see,

But what you can be;

That makes your life special,

Bright & so dear.

P.J. Perry

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it was a great whitetrash dream we had

too bad you flew away today

i loved being your wife

of the moment pinning away

for booze, a trailer, the dog and you

i'd start watching tv

even, begin drinking beer,

schlitz or some equally cheap kind,

wear lots of lipstick

whatever color you wanted,

husband, raise the kids

to be naked and wild

on the piece of land we staked

out in trailerpark heaven

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A stranger

He is a friend and he is a stranger.

I know him well and I know him not.

So near and yet so far.

Is he a messenger from Heaven ?

But why is he closing his doors ?

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Fly

I cried some tears for you tonight Grandma,

I know you wouldn't want me to grieve.

I can't help but miss you,

Why did you have to leave?

I hope you are happy

As you watch flying over me.

I want you to see me smiling,

As you go on your journey.

I left a rose with you Grandma,

On the petals lies a kiss.

I thought you could use one,

Knowing those we'll both miss.

I cried some tears for you tonight Grandma,

I saw something you would have loved.

Bright, beautiful colors lit the night sky

Somehow I knew you watched from above.

I hope that one day my tears will end,

I think of you and just cry.

Although the thought of you as my angel

Would make my tears dry.

I stare out my window and think of you

I know that you can see.

Because it was through your own window

Where you used to wave to me.

But now I wave good-bye to you

It's time for me to let you go.

I love you with all my heart still

Now Grandma you wear a halo.

7*5*99

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CARPE DIEM
-William Carlton Ansley Jr.


Carpe diem, seize the day

Follow this saying in every way.

Why can't you tell her how you feel?

You better listen to what I say


Go ahead; tell her straight

Ask her on that first date

You know you want to

You better before it's too late


You know you love her, you know you care

But break her heart, you wouldn't dare

If you only knew how she felt

If you could only ask her to share


You won't ask her, for fear of hearts being broke

Every time you try to ask, you begin to choke

You just wish that the words would appear

But all that comes out is a simple croak


As you walk up to give her the wedding band

You see in front of her, another man

As he begins to kneel, you begin to weep

And now you regret not asking for her hand


If only it could have been, the way you wanted it

You know that you could have made her happy

But I love you came too late

And now she's gone forever


To all of you out there who have ever felt this way

Carpe diem, seize the day

You better tell her how you feel

Listen to the words that I say

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(smile for everthing in the dawn of sky that is sad);
Matthew D. Cabra

fun yourself with the indiscreet wonderings

that shadow every morning's touch;

grinning at yesterday's remains and

the immortal articles

that anchor your path towards tomorrow);

for the silent forces that can never

tell their story,

and the regret of neglect-

-snubbing sorrow into forget-

drink another for

a sacredness that eludes you; and another for

the one true that denies you;

thin-thoughted nods to affirm

a forced euphoria; remembering that

observation is deeper than explanation,

to exist, more than to know,

to be, higher than every novel.

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The Seraph's kiss

Is she the seraph living in my dreams?

For if she rises seraphs' noble wings,

Like that of light caressing off the beams

Of mortal men, that stare in awa, these things.

Now fortify in me outrageousness to glee

To tell the tales of her lovers past;

No vows forget, you so, my bride to be

And therefor fairy promises must last.

I posed the problem clipping precious wings

To toil to fall and burn. Now she lies,

Her face to point towards the northern rings,

Her misery is heard through vagueness skies.

But now she smiles, recovered from her state

She kissed me deeply, not a hesitate.

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Remember Me

I'm the one in the club

that had you weaving through the crowd,

as soon as you saw my baby browns.


I'm the one that made you sure

of something you did'nt think you could do,

making love to a stranger through a night turn new.


I'm the one that you think about

when your with someone else cause it ain't quite the same,

the wind in my back, how I moan you name.


I'm the one you think about

and know if we were together how it would be,

the one in your heart

the one in your dreams

Remember Me.

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I know that I'm over you I'm more sure of this than I know, yet everytime I see you my curiousity begans too grow. I don't know why I wonder how you feel it seems I really shouldn't care. It's just I want to know if after all this time if what we had was real.

Even though I know that in reality I could never give you another chance...but my heart seems uncertain and is begging for a new beginning. Your mystery struck me so hard that I thought I could never let go..your touch was so comfortable and it meant so much. So why do I feel this now and not before..because I see you alone and I want us too begin again. I know that our worlds lie very far apart..but too me there are closer than they have ever been before. I guess none of this makes sense, and noone could possibly understand, so why do I keep this in my mind like it will happen again. I feel something so intense when you look at me..and it gives me pleasure and pain, for you too see it. I guess you'll never know how I feel and how much you did mean too me, because even when we were together, you didn't even know. But if there was one way I could let you know or sit down and have a talk, I would say too you, that I don't care about the past, or how many others there were I just wanted you the way that you were and I would always be there for you.

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I think I love an evil droid

or am I simply paranoid

He controls what he feels

his mind reveals

with an absence of feeling

turned on at convenience

not to mention strange brilliance

but am I just crazy

on such a superficial hunch

maybe it is a good idea

to take off early for lunch

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thinking of the times

when i looked into your eyes

i guess i failed to see

the angel in disguise


only if i had told you

my emotions were so real

but i could not describe

what my heart tried to conceal


inside i hid my dreams

and thoughts of what could be

because looking into my soul

i couldn't see the reality


how could i have missed

the person of my dreams

maybe love IS blind

at least that's how it seems


now that i must live

with regrets i can't let go

i thought that i would tell you

the words you did not know...

i love you.

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during the seedy summers

in bloomington when i ran

down the streets of kirkwood

half naked(save my swimming trunks)

a thought occurred to me,

playdough. simple as that playdough..

you could mold it into griffins

one armed monkeys and even mom and dad,

and then when you got bored...you either

had the choice of leaving it on the

radiator to crack and dry, or just eat it.

playdough. a metaphor for life?

perhaps.

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Visual Image

It is a superficial package placed upon a person.

It is placed upon their mind and soul.

It is what we judge by.

It's is one way we are faltered.

It is what we must overcome.

It is what we must see though.

It is hard but we must see the truth though, it is the truth that is too hard for most.

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TRUE

Stranded alone.....

Brittle and week.....

Burned by society.....

Forced to hide,


T R U E Emotions from the world.


Afraid of the journey tomorrow.

Crying of pain and rejection, yet disguising this at day.

- Andy Fielding

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"Wake up"

I'm not interesting

the grass isn't green

my sight it is keen

i am not so mean


it is killing me

life it isn't free

simple as it may seem

i know it is just a dream


i have seen to much

this i can not touch

i am on a crutch

disability is such

a crime...


it shouldn't be this way

everyone eats hay

they are all the same

i think it is vary lame


herded all like sheep

not enough time for sleep

maybe I'm just a creep

for some this is too deep


people need a clue

the sky isn't blue

nothings as it may seem

i know though......

that this is all a dream

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october moon

casts a beam

through the window

panes of the nursery,

a child on the floor

holding his stomach in

pain, a rocking horse

slowed to a stop.

still life of innocence

lost in the gleam

of the october moon.

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Fascination

On sheets like this I rose and wrote

How when to exist was never a part

Then still I heard a laugh sigh to my attention

Will someone thank this unforgivin heart?

Why so morbid, and not yet freed?

You look at nature and try to believe.

Its oblivion fascinates me

Left to feel the trees bleed.

All in common era, as day travels faster than time.

Come to stop and caress

And stop not to posses

The entirety of thoughts thought to be mine.

I can not be at peace and say this is love

Where would it exist here?

No pond filled with life or drips of beat

And its silence would have love in fear

Fascination is the eternal key-

It is what keeps one young and free

Fragmental transformations of an exhilarating feel

Those were the days I did not feel real.

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"Time Out"
Paddy Jo Perry Burleson

It all seems so futile-

The rambling & racing.

The worrying bout bills,

The midnight pacing.


If I had but only one day-

Which road would I travel

& what would I say?


Would I pay all my bills-

Making sure all is clear?

Or walk through a garden with one I hold dear?


Would my day be filled with smiles & laughter,

Grabbing all of the love I could possibly capture?


Would I believe the "blue" in those eyes,

As deep as the ocean,

As bright as the sky?


Could I remember & realize,

Those loving eyes that mesmerize?


Would I gaze upon the dying sun-

Knowing that my work here, now is done?

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We all do
(CB)

I never saw the pain

of the past

in your eyes

so clear blue green

green blue

the depth of your smile,

the gleam of your hair,

the tender arousing touch of your hand

and body on mine,

yet here at 2am

you roll and toss

then lie quiet beneath me

and from our combined pleasure

you confess fears

carried from previous lovers.


I am touched by your

torments and insecurities

both proud at your courage and strength

then angered by

fools who didn't appreciate

the joy they momentarily held,

the pleasure they wasted then discarded,

the despair they forced upon you.


Your smile,

your laugh and self discipline,

I cannot see beyond

the pleasure I receive from your company,

your touch,

and in the dark I shake my head

and wrap myself around you

and hold you while you sleep

hoping to wipe away your groundless fears

knowing we all do what we can,

my own insecurities melt with yours,

I can still feel your lips on my neck.

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stare into love
by michael ryan massey


look into my eyes, and see

what true love must be

stare into my soul,

and see what you must know

behold my complete obsession,

and how it holds no discretion

come to the realization

that loving any other is a desecration

of your souls desire

feel my loves consuming fire

you will never find

a love as complete as mine

look into my eyes, and see

what true love must be

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Unique Garden

Have you been born into the promised land

are you still living your fake little life


rebel young one

in the garden of life

set it on fire

break free

who cares about the money

quit your fantasy

of champagne and roses

from your business suit drone

turn loose

be wild

live out every ecstasy

paint with lust

express yourself with words

don't chain yourself

to the world of lifeless robots

don't strive to be one of them

strive to be unique

come to the garden of life

not the promised land

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Frayed

cut my heart

your razor cold and stony

never sharp;

sharp would be to easy

a cut that's neat and clean...a wound i can't survive.

instead, you batter and you bludgeon

you want me alive.

you ask for my forgiveness;

then rip it from my lips...shove it down my throat, and leave it there to die.

threads of a life

left lying on the floor...never quite enough

to pick them up.

maybe again make whole...the person who was, before the control.

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Running Unicorn

She steps through the clearing

gazing to the West

just pondering the idea for a love to find,

Each day she walks on while these thoughts engulf her mind.

Every night she dreams of the day

when her hopes will become more than nothing.

She walks on once more then begins to run

running through the trees and hills to the sun.

Miles pass by and her tears, they flow,

still running from the pain in search of hope.

Her hope is love, in which she cannot find,

For just like, me the Unicorn remains alone.

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To Fall

Laying on the floor, I have seen what I've done.

There is no time for help, I will die alone.

There is no stopping this pain, for it will not go.

Can I stop this blood, I really do not know.


I look at my body from above it all,

I'm just a wanderer now, no reasons to fall.

Even though my body has died,

my soul reacts with much suprise.


I gaze upon the blood I have drawn

from both wrists, death did not take long.

Now I feel no pain,I feel nothing at all.

though, I will forever wonder, was it the pains that lead to my fall?

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Just Look at the Moon

My heart said to tell you

Many times I had tried

But though I knew the words to say

I was scared to tell you I cried


I came to the place where we'd first met

A night I badly missed

But you were there with someone else

Let it be a dream I wished


As I watched you two

Time we'd spent together passed before my eyes

But you were too busy holding her

To hear my mournful cries


You said you didn't love her

But I knew it wasn't true

The only thing that was true that night

Was the love I had for you


I saw you looking in her eyes

But I couldn't bare to see

So I turned my head away

Knowing you'd kiss her just as you kissed me


You said if I missed you terribly

Just to look at the moon

And know that you're looking up there too

And will be there with me soon


Looking for some comfort

I ran and went outside

But the moon was hidden behind a cloud

So I stayed outside and cried


So now I lay awake

Tears streaming down my face

You're the one I'll always love

No one will take that place

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Downstream

Take pity on this willow that cowers over a stream so shallow

Never knowing the fullness of my height nor the height of my fullness.


Allow my roots to be wetted and rotted by a meandering wanderer.

What do you bring me today on your ceaseless trip to nowhere?

A twig on center stage not seeking your bank on either side

As if greater than the unfallen that you pass by.


Seemingly you go as fully as you came

And yet if it were so I would not stay

You are the master that my beseeching fingers implore

Under earth and rock and grass

As a beggar ashamed hides in shadows.


Take me with you to places unseen

Let me pass by and mock those rooted remnants of the dreamtime

That see a world unmoved and are bounded by their watery touch.

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As the tear fell from my face

it hit the floor and with the collision

came the shattered pieces of a broken heart

her dreams have all been torn apart

the vision of her future so unsure

the uncertainty of tomorrow

and the mysteries of today

the world around her appears so cruel and lonely

striving everyday to find some realization of herself

pretending to everyone to be something no one knows of

not even herself

just another role on the great stage of life

acting until the great show or life as we call it is over

the shadows often come between her and the world

and she finds herself looking for a way out

often through the wrong doors

the paths she has chosen at times have closed many opportunities

for a new beginning will she ever make it through?

---------------------------------

A Dream

I hold you in my arms and gaze into your eyes.

But when I wake I recall only lies.

The thought of having you so very close

Is all to perfect, and for me it is lost.

You are my longing, my hope, my faith

Only in my dreams will I have you, so I must wait.

I'll wait for the night, to feel your love.

Then I'll suffer the morning, knowing of my loss.

I would really like some feedback. Please feel free to e-mail me at Mjkunicorn@aol.com.

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"Fairy Tales"

Daydreams and realities,

Fantasies of mine,

White knights in armor,

Castles so divine,

Damsels in distress,

Dragons hoping to dine.

Fairy tales of long ago,

Another time and place,

Wishing I could be there,

Dressed in a gown of lace,

The prize of every knight,

Adored for my grace.

Never could this be,

Not now or here,

This world is no dream,

No dragons to fear,

The knights have disappeared,

And I am not a prize here.

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I sit and stare outside,

gazing and thinking about what was,

and ponder what could be,

and what is.

I think about what I want

and what I think I want;

what my parents want for me

and how it differs

from what I think they want for me.

I ponder things I've never pondered,

and talk about things...

maybe I shouldn't say;

what would my friends and family think

of what I say of them?

And then I realize I'm at my desk

off on a daydream

and reality snaps back,

like a rubber band

and I resume my homework.

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It's Not Our Fault

I didn't start any wars

I didn't consummate with any whores

I don't have a concubine

I even try to share what is mine


Humankind is a genuine conflagration

Yet not caused by my generation

So why do we have to be blamed

You should all be f*cking ashamed

--------------------------------

VICTORY CABBAGE

I lost my appetite today

watching a Yes-man press secretary

embellish fascism

with chicken winged, malt liquor rhetoric, and

home fried freedom of speech.

Turned the television off, "bad for my cholesterol."

**

Bombs flex the backbone prowess of my generation,

Little Red Fire Trigger against the Big Bad Wolf...

Man-made meteor craters:haywire tearducts: sanguine grass stains

for those who survive.

And the price at one time in America?

Bald, bland processed beef franks

and nickel-dime condiment euphemism

Sold by American street vendors as if

they were selling Hitler dolls dressed in

Lipstick and fluorescent finger nail polish

at any VFW Christmas social.

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For My Love
By Natalie Roman

I don't care about the color of my hair.

I don't care about the softness of my skin.

I don't care if all I do is stare at the wall when nothing's really there.

I don't care if I don't breathe any air.

I don't care about anything when you are not there.

Because I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest.

I want to feel your body close to my breast.

I feel like my gut has been gripped when you leave my side.

This is what I wanted to tell you when you asked me why I cried.

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the phone rang.... i said hello.

a soft voice spoke but little did i know.

that he was the one that i had waited for..

and the one i would love in my heart forever more.

our eyes have never met but i can see in to his soul

and when i hear his voice i feel that i am whole.

i can feel his pain, and his breath with in my heart

i can feel his warmth so i know were not apart.

at nite i dream, of the person he can be

and i cant wait till the day that i know he loves me.

when he does... i will never let him go

i will keep him in my heart and will always love him so.

I will kiss his sweet lips and touch his soft hair

look in to his eyes and get lost in a stair

feel his heart beat and know this is right

and beg for him to stay with me tonight

i will take care of him and treat him good.

and hold him close just like i should.

held with in his arms i will fall asleep

and i will hand him my soul for him to keep.

-----------------------------------

Last night he came to me,

his name was inspiration.

He touched me in places I didn't know I had

He made me feel beautiful

And does not make me shy


I fly in a forgotten dream

And a smile meets my face

Leaves grow on the trees of winter

And sun shines through the rain

I'm swimming in his wake


He brought me gifts of golden loveliness;

Above humanity I fly;

I did not know that I was asleep

A queen or duchess am I


Don't ever leave

I wish to stay

and hold your Gentle hand

For I did not know dwelled among the mortals


With him he brought expectation

With him he brought charm

He brought me my very life

He handed me the key;


And after all of that, he brought me comfort

And she whispered gently in my ear

I know, I know, I know


Did you know that you were he?

Shannon K. Hoover May 5, 1999

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Amber Waves

His face is wreathed in shame and sorrow

As he flicks open the lighter

Puts it to the cloth

And drops it at the mayor's feet


Stars and stripes illuminate-

Undulating in a fiery ballet

All is silent for a moment-

Then a furious howl is heard


Angry churchman charges

Throws his Bible

At the murderer of dreams

And the slayer of hopes


"How dare you, Heathen!

Dare burn my precious flag

Banner of salvation and

Standard of perfection."


"How dare you, Reverend!

Dare sit in your fancy home

Symbol of power and greed

While I sleep in my doorway."


"This is your flag, and not mine

Threads of the rich man,

Rope of the poor man,

This is your flag, and not mine."

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I use to be a slave

Who dreamt

of running away

dreaming of freedom

up north

I used to be a slave who was beaten every day

told my destiny was always to be this way.

I was told I felt no pain

told I could not

think

feel

Human emotions

but now I am free but freedom isn't free

----------------

it's a miracle. Trying to understand a cause not fully my right to own. It only

seems that with all this patience, I'm desperately trying to understand how you

feel. I know that sometimes shadows bear fear and honesty quickly dissolves into

lies, but eventually it comes down to being aware. Seeing the truth as fair and

believe that those who are newly born can teach us and will teach us to be strong,

and as we come to this eventual end. Our kids would have taught how to love and

and they' re will lead the way.

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Death

When you are born
it's another new life for a lost loved one.

When you become a teenager
it's one step from becoming an adult.

When you're grown up
it's a sign of aging.

When you get a gray hair
many will follow.

But when you're dead
another life is born to take your place.

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Starlight, starbright

first star I see tonight

I'm wishing on you

I'm wishing with you.

Starlight, starbright

can I have this wish tonight

I need him with me

I'm asking of you.

Starlight, starbright

can you grant this wish tonight

so I can have him by me

right here beside me.

Starlight, starbright

first star I see tonight

I'm wishing on you

I'm wishing with you.

Starlight, starbright

I know you hear me

so won't you steer me

to my love tonight

----------------------

THE WORDS-
BECKY


MY HEART ACHES

MY EYES CRY

MY LIPS WHISPER A SORROWFUL SIGH

MY EARS NEVER HEARD

THE LONG AWAITED WORDS-

I LOVE YOU.

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Ruined

You've no idea my feeling right now,

Cause I'm not about to reveal it.

It's not very pleasant - this mood that I'm in,

But you're the one that should feel it.

You've no idea the trouble you've caused,

And all the pain that you brought.

I did what I could; I did nothing more

To get rid of this feeling I fought.

But there's still one thing that I just can't forget,

It stuck deep in my mind for good.

I would have been fine if you would have thought,

If you had just done what you should.

But I'm done blaming you; it's not worth the pain

That always jumps into my head.

So I'll just let it go,

And I'll take the blow.

I'll start blaming myself instead.

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noise

noise all around

yet it's quiet

light

light all around

yet it's dark

people

people all around

yet it's deserted

the quiet, dark, deserted world

within it's own world

never changing

unlike the world surrounding

spinning

spinning around and around

can't stop

going too fast

breaking out

screaming

screaming as loud as I can

yet no one hears

no one notices

just another silent face in the crowd

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(LOVE)

How does a person tell someone..

The way this person fell in love..

I hope Darling in this poem..

I can express to you how my love has grown ..


My love for you is like a beautiful stream..

Which flows until it meets its destiny..

Like a river flows till it meets the ocean..

Then it knows its journey is finally over..


My love need not flow anymore..

For its found a love that it adores..

My love is a river that found its ocean..

Your love to me is a magical potion..

Written by.

(( Christopher ))

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Suicide

The ground 24 floors below

Invites you to step off the ledge

See your whole life flash past

In fast-forward

As you discover

Yet another irony.

You want to live

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HUH, HUH, HUH
BY JUSTIN BRONSON

RAIN, RAIN GO AWAY COME KILL MY MIND ANOTHER DAY.

THE STORMS RAGING IN MY HEAD ARE RARELY AT BAY.

WHERE, OH, WHERE HAS MY SANITY GONE

WHERE, OH, WHERE CAN IT BE?

BANG, BANG, BANG, THE PAIN WONT LEAVE ME ALONE.

THE PAIN I SEE AND FEEL IS INVISIBLE TO THEM.

LAUGHTER, HIDEOUS, HORRIBLE LAUGHTER ITS DRIVING ME MAD.

MAD, I'M NOT MAD, BUT THE LAUGHTER IN MY HEAD IS.

DO WHAT I TELL YOU,

OR TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

I SEE YOUR FACE. I SEE YOUR MIND.

MY FACE IS HIDDEN MY MIND IS A BLURR.

HA, HA, HA, LAUGHTER ONCE AGAIN.

NOW SILENCE IN MY HEAD.

ANY SANE THOUGHTS I HAVE ARE ALL BUT DECAYING NOW,

BY THE TERRIBLE SHRIEKING IN MY HEAD.

I'M NOT MAD OR CRAZY I TELL YOU,

ITS JUST THE LAUGHTER IN MY HEAD.

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My life is like an ocean,

With is drab and dreary days,

With waves as high as ten feet tall,

And nothing gorgeous or gay.


My love is like an infant,

Easily destroyed,

Or like a little boat,

Pushed and shoved 'till it gives away.


My family is like the sunshine

That I welcome everyday,

And those who think I'm happy

Most be looking the wrong way.


For this may be my future,

Even though it was my past,

And I will have to live with it,

Until I'm gone at last.

By~Rachel M.

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"A Friend"

A friend is someone who is there, to listen and to say they care.

A friend is there through good or bad, to make you happy if your sad.

A friend will always help you out, without a thought or a doubt.

A friend will never let you down, they'll make you smile when you frown.

A friend will walk that extra mile, if it helps to make you smile.

A friend is like a shining star, whether they are near or far.

A friend is one of a kind, and so very hard to find.

A friend will share all your pain, and take you in out of the rain.

A friend will share what you fear, and that friend is right here!!!

Tamara Oursland 1989

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CIRCLES

THINGS KEEP LOOKING BETTER UNTIL ALL HITS THE FLOOR

lIFE TURNS IN CIRCLES LEADING BACK TO BEFORE

THE SAME OLD STORY, SOUNDING BETTER EACH TIME TOLD

ALWAYS WISHING AND DREAMING, ANOTHER SUCKER SOLD

YET ANOTHER ATTEMPT TO CLIMB TO THE TOP

SLIPPING AND FALLING WITH NO WAY TO STOP

TEARS SHEDDING A HEART UNMENDED

ANOTHER SLAP IN THE FACE BY THE HAND LENDED

AFTER ALL HAS COME AND FALLEN TO THE FLOOR

TELL ME, DO YOU CONTINUE IN CIRCLES BACK TO BEFORE?

BY KRISTY BUMPUS

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A Love that Surpasses Time
By: Jillian Hoover, PA -- Age 18

There is a feeling from deep inside.

To feel the arms that just won't hide.

The strength of one around another.

Who dare say he is my brother.

Related we are not; soulmates we may be.

So hold me close then we both may see.

We were once close in another life.

But you were killed by the enemies knife.

I longed to have you near again.

And now we are, in my lare this den.

Never will we part.

We will forever be heart to heart.

Life through life we may change form.

But come together again, every time we are born.

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LAST WEDNESDAY
BY CARYAIN OLMOST

A love that's lost

But at arm's length

A hand is wiped

Across a tear stained cheek.


An echoed silence

Fills a sun drenched room

A solitary coffin

Around flowers bloom.


Can I pray and bring him back?

If my love is just and true.

Could I find the peace I lack?

Will my heart break and I die too?

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Game

Think again

what you thought you knew

never existed

what you had

was never there

you are not what you think you are

instead

you are the thing in which everyone makes you

nevermind your wants

forget your dreams

they are mere spectators in this game

a game that once made you whole

now makes you insane

----------------------------

Thought
Lucas Andersen

Your thoughts are done without anybody noticing

You can be thinking without even showing me

It's a powerful thing when it goes invisible

Others can't reveal it, therefor it's invincible

It was the first in existence, making it the father of life

He made a child to bury his strife

He was lonely, alone with just his own thought

So he gave it to others, causing to untangle his knot

He built this world of life by thought itself

And we live here today because of his help

We give thought a name, assuring us he's no fraud

I gave him a name, I call him god.

--------------------------------------------

One

I watch two lovers as I sit waiting in the grandstand. Though it is cold, they huddle close together simply to feel the being of each other. Their arms entwined they pull themselves closer to themselves. AS they settle, their minds become closer and their heads rest, one on top of the other. They gradually fall into the rhythm of themselves. Each of their chests heave minutely in simultaneous breath. They stare into each other and see themselves. They move their heads till their foreheads and noses touch and gaze momentarily into the beauty of the other only to laugh and look elsewhere after the moment passes. Their arms serpentine more as they close tighter around each other. Skin to skin. As if the heavy jackets they wear to shield out the cold had no purpose, and the only thing to protect them was the hold on each other growing ever closer and more enticing. Again they laugh for a reason only the two can know.

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"My Mystery"
PJ Perry

It rambles on through my mind

With thoughts I sometimes find unkind,

Where will I go?

What will I do?

Will my smile be bright & my words be true?

I often ponder where I have been,

Where I will wander,

Where I will end.

Have I done my best & given all my heart?

Is now the time for me alone to start?

Put bad memories to rest at last,

It's really time to bury that past.

How can I erase that hurt in my soul;

That wakes me up in the night---

Leaving me lonely & cold?

------------------------------

Swang
T.F.


An old rubber tire hangs from wood with roots,

Old ropes and laughter hold it in place.

"Higher!" "Faster!" "Watch me jump out!"

Still echo through the hole in the middle.

Pa built me a "swang" to keep me occ'pied,

Now it keeps company with birds and june bugs.

How simple happiness was to a child of ten,

How hard it is to remember for a child of forty.

"Swang me till the sun sets, Pa!" cried

A gangly girl with a cut above her knee,

"Swang me till I scream!"

Somewhere in my middle is a giggle waiting

To to escape from the motion of the sway . . .sway

Sway . . .of my tire swang.

"Swang me till I puke, Pa!" "Swang me till I'm growed."

Swang me one last time, Pa, then you can go home.

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Everything to Me
To Renee from Kevin

With you passion erupts in what could be

Senses crazy but still thinking straight strangely

Bloom in my arms rosebud to be

While I brush your long blonde hair

touch your face

kissing you slowly

With the scent of your body

Grants me a smile

So then I fell in love

This means everything to me

In this night I want you holding me

Powerful words are said

With a seed of compliment

And our eyes of water stare.

In passion disregarding heartbreak

I slip my heart in your pocket

Hoping there's a way to look in

I stroke your hair

And touch your lips

Then I whisper

You are everything to me.

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I Never Thought

I never thought I love you

could ever mean so much

I never thought I'd be so glad

After feeling someone's touch


I never thought someone like you

could fall in love with me

I never thought I'd find someone

I'd love so truly or so deeply


But miracles do happen

And dreams do come true

I'm just so very lucky

To have found someone like you


I love you so much

I can't imagine us not together

I want you to know

I will love you forever


For My superman I Love you baby!

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my thoughts
by:jay lafontaine

I sit here remembering man

and I find it hard to understand

that the one I look up to is gone

and I sit here and here him say that life goes on

but it's so hard to say good-bye

to my hero that had died

but in my heart his legend will live

and my respect's is all I give

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I left you because*

I'm sorry that I left you so sudden and so quick,

but if I had one last chance you'd be the one I'd pick.

I broke up with you because you were just so fine,

and I didn't know if you were only mine.

I left you because you were just to good for me.

I hope you understand, and I hope that you can see.

Writing you this poem makes me feel real good,

I hope it makes you feel this way,

cause that's the way it should.

To tell you the truth I really did care,

and I know I said I would always be their.

This poem that I wrote is not a lie,

I'm sorry I didn't stop to say goodbye.

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Do my Senses oppose Love?
Joyce Hunter

I sit in a crowded room

Yet I'm all alone

Unaware of everything.

My feelings are like

Shadows under dim moonlight

Waiting for my heart to come

within one step of it's silhouette.

I can't speak

For I'm afraid...

I can't think or see

For I'm blinded by what is before me...

I can't taste

For the aroma is not appealing.

How could I fall victim to love?

Was it deliberate?

Or were feelings just miscalculated?

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I

I: don't believe in coincidences

I: cry myself to sleep

I: can't comprehend that you don't love me

I: get scared alone at night

I: want to wake up in your arms

I: will always get my way

I: hate the girls you play with

I: will mess with your best friend

I: will do anything to be noticed

I: live for the lime light

I: am way younger than I look

I: watch you ruin your body

I: think nasty thoughts

I: won't rest until I get you

-----------------------------------

Can't You See?

Can't you see the way that I feel?

It's so obvious, it's so real

All it takes is glance in my direction.

Can't you see?

The way I shake when we touch

Your touch is so electric it shocks me to the core.

Can't you see?

I'm standing right here!

I could love you so much but to you I'm not even here.

Can't you see?

The way it hurts inside

It's so obvious, it's so real.

The pain that I feel cause to you I'm not even alive.

Can't you see?

I love you so much....

------------------

I cannot close my eyes with out feeling cold

I catch her in the corner of my eyes, even when they let the water flow

even in the dark I see her smile

I hear her voice she wants me to laugh

but I am dumb, maybe I am only smart with that part of the brain I cut off

I can still taste her eyes, they have travelled so deep into me

I still feel the electricity her touch create in me

My soul ache like a forgotten building

I close my eyes and she hangs over me, like some warrior angel

She has tried to slay my demons for me

but in a whirl wind I get pushed away

I have lost my battling angel, and all of those passionate memories haunt me

I open my eyes to escape like a wanted criminal

but the dogs are still just behind me, they'll never let me free

I turn of the lights and whisper in the dark all of those tight apologies

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NIGHT

The stillness of a quiet night

The flickering glow of a dim street light.

Leaves that whisper in a shallow breeze,

tell of their secrets to the trees.


The rain falls softly in the street,

A midnight shower falls at my feet.

I look up into the darkened sky,

The moon creeps through the clouds so high.


The rain sweeps by, it's quiet once more,

The street light flickers, as it did before.

The freshness of a few day dawns,

The night is gone.....and daylight yawns.

----------------------------------------

Alison (written 11-29-98)

late last night

after we made love

she lay next to me

sleeping

dreaming

bathing

naked

in the moonlight

i looked her over

with tender care

but found

no feather

no wings

no halo

no trace

of who

she really is


by Jeremy Wojciechoski, email me and let me know what you think jeremylyle@hotmail.com

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Be aware that life moves

not forward or backwards,

but in some trodding fashion.

Of a third dimension.

Ghostly

Perhaps time is faith proven,

acknowledgment of boundaries in reason and perception.


We quantify time

Poor mind,

cannot handle the infinity.

These seconds mark our existence,

And parade our scientific affinity.

But seconds also devour us,

An emotionally jagged tear,

For those seconds will know the cessation of us

and all those who would care.

--------------------------

Burning Desire.

She told me she would always be my friend, always be around,

But when some boy comes along, I'm left on the cold, cold ground.

It was that way when we met Billy,

I liked him and he like me.

She couldn't stand it so she tore us apart,

Nothing's broken, just my heart.

I saw them kiss, and it cut me so deep,

Now at night I cry myself to sleep.

People tell me I should have aimed higher,

I wish I had, because now my soul is on fire.

She blames me when her and her boyfriends brake up,

Now I'm going to tell her to "Shut the HELL up!"

Upon her I wished everything, Famine, Plague, Death,

I won't be around when she draws her last breath.

I will always lone him, I will always care,

But for her, never again shall I be there.

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FADED

I like the necklace you wear

It's made of ugly seashells

But it still tells me who you were

It brings back memories

Of long forgotten days

When I tried so hard to forget myself

In a way that made me cry

I hate that necklace

It makes me cringe

It doesn't change the fact

That the memories are gone

------------------------

SURF

Your eyes told a story telling me you'd stay,

with my eyes wide open, along with my heart

I watched you walk away. So I surf off the

pain and the pleasure of having you near, with

another wave passing by, rolls another tear.

When you left I guess there was too much on

your mind, you left me standing there empty

handed struggling to survive. So I surf off

the time and the memories we shared hoping

the tide will carry me away too someone who

will care. I saw you today and my eyes took

a glance, it seems you've taken a second look

and asked me for another chance. So I'm on the

wave and I'm doing well it's kinda of funny how

you feel compelled too call me when I'm in my groove

it seems before you were misunderstood. So I surf off your

question and don't even think it through, Because I know that

all I need in my life is the perfect wave too carry me away from you.

---------------------------

The Actor

Quiet the critics

who whisper at ease

the negative response

to normality must seize


Nervous becomes the actor

who is new to the name

the light of motivation dims

which was leading him to fame


Oblivious is the observer

who watches from the stands

consumed in thoughts of his own

he claps his hands


The stage is cleared

the spot light is out

in a short time we will forget

what the play was about

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Out of Jungle Drag

A lust song travelling

within my thighs

the ocean contorting neptune

in a room

of swift-heeled mercuries

& their darting shit,

sifitng thru tinsel

you are me

& inspiration

waking up in a cold sweat

an the fever

an chill

of sophisticated wet dreams,

seeping thru my pores

like syrupy

southern flowers

thru an imaginary open window

of the mind

I take you in

cell by cell

always a sucker

for the Child

who's got his Own.

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Isn't love loneliness?

To know that you are perfect with someone

Only to find that it's not to be

To search your whole life for someone

just to truly love

To hold onto through the whole night

And never once thinking of letting go

Because if you let go

You may never have it back

And spend your years in a denial

Of something you could never have

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"Hello Holy Spirit"
Cynthia Austin-Thorn Copyright 1995, excerpt from "When the Night is Over and the Day's Begun"


Hello Holy Spirit! Can I be your baby? I'll be your little lamb.
I'll try not to make noise, and be as good as I can.

You can guide me and protect me with your everlasting light,
Knowing I am safe in the middle of the night.

Show me the way to the goodness up above; on wings of eagles, I'll fly like a dove.
You won't let me give up, 'cause I know You'll be there.
You won't let me get caught in the trap of the snare.

I won't feel alone anymore, or that life's battles are mine.
I'll let You fight them for me, on the front firing line.

I won't be afraid anymore of what tomorrow shall bring.
I'll only remember His praises to sing.
Not be afraid to wither and die; not be afraid to call out and cry.

For you were sent from God's only begotten Son,
So that we would know that the battle could be won.

You'll help me forgive the pains of the past; You'll show me that they won't always last.
As long as I know I have you by my side; I can weather the storms of life's heavy tides.

Tell me that you love me, that you'll never let me go.
I'll be washed in the blood of Jesus; and made whiter than snow.

And when I meet my maker on that glorious day,
I'll know that I made it, 'cause You showed me the way.

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when i ache

do you know,

that i love you so much,

that when i ache,

it's for your touch,

when i cry,

it's for your comfort alone,

you have the power,

to warm me throughout,

with a simple kiss,

love me always,

because i'll never let go

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HOURS ON END----ANDREW JAHC

Have you ever needed someone so bad?

To remind you of the good things you've had

So the pain can ease or erase forever

Or to have fun again and remember


A companion to listen, a friend to care

That someone close by, just be there

The keeper of secrets, an ear to listen

Even a stranger before we go missin'


For if we must toil our perils alone

We fall from grace into the unknown

Places where only the darkness prevails

Close the blinds and shut the veils


In the shelter of darkness behind closed eyes

Open our hearts and our minds, now no lies

You've been there for me; I've been there for you

But you know that already, do you need a clue?


We've spoken for hours, hours on end

And now it's time to make amends

I know you feel guilty about times gone by

Take my advice, live on, please don't cry


Visit me every night as I visit you

Close your eyes tight, that's how I see you

Sorry but those two lives end the same

See you soon, that's if your game.

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SHAME
Lynda LaRousse

My abusers are gone

They abuse me no more

But shame takes their place

and abuses me more.


Like a centurion it stands

Guarding my minds door

Allowing no good thought

of me to enter, what for?


Shame told me I was scum

Sewage of the earth

Life would have been better

If I had died at my birth

But one day I opened up

that door, big and wide

Flooding my mind with

Glorious light, revealing the truth inside


I saw the things

I had never seen before

Shame had lied

I wasn't scum any more


What I saw

was a person I had never known

A loving soul

Who was dying and alone


The anger she had shown

For all the world to see

Was not of her doing

Shame would not set her free


With shame now abolished

It rears it's ugly head no more

She is free to be

The loving soul God created her for.

And I love her.

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"You love is..."

Love is like hell

You are my sin

Your heart is so black

Never giving in


Your like a disease

That starts in by heart

Sinks into my soul

Then tears us apart


How could something so sweet

Be poison at the same time

A delicate rose

Wilting in my mind


No I must live life

In the absence of your touch

Never in the wrong

Just needing it too much

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Death

How terrified I am thru the dark terrors of this scene

How I die without saying how precious life is

How angry and enraged I am thru my sorrow death

How my bitter cries could not be heard again

Without any heart thy you killed today and without any love you took my heart away

The dark blood on my face reflects the stars of hell

and the wounded cuts and broken bones broke my insides away

Sins on my bloody heart will fill thru hell , and the glory of angles will sing again

As I lie here in filth , fear in my self has eaten hope away

Dreadful memories of the long gone past never ever to be felt again

The warmth of the brilliant sunshine on my face disappeared with pain and regret

The joy of life has ended for me and the death of mine that you made real

I end my words with shame and dread and in the end buried in the grave I lye with rats in my brain.

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"Harvest Moon"

By the light of the Harvest Moon, I still love you.

Thoughts of you haunt me; questions that are plauging me;

A love that went wrong. "Why", I keep asking myself.

Tears form the dreams that were shattered stream steadily down my face.

By the light of the Harvest Moon, I miss you.

I miss the love we once shared. The tender kisses on my brow,

Being held when I felt a little bit scared...hearing your sweet words in my ears.

Staring into your beautiful eyes, knowing that you were still loving me to.

By the light of the Harvest Moon, I wonder...Did you ever really love me?

Were any of your words true?

You were my everything, my light. For you, I smiled, laughed, cried.

For you, I existed.

I may never know why we had to end. I may never again see your face...

Hear your voice...

See you smile...

But, by the light of the Harvest Moon...

I'll Still love you.

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AS I LOOK FAR AND NEAR

WHAT WILL I SEE AND HEAR

THE BELLS AS I LEAVE MY HELL

AS I LOOK FAR AND NEAR

WHAT WILL I SEE AND HEAR

A DOVE SITTING ON A COVE

SHARING OUR LOVE

AS I LOOK FAR AND NEAR

WHAT WILL I SEE AND HEAR

THE PURE WHITE SNOW FALLING UPON ME

TELLING ME OUR LOVE WAS MEANT TO BE

AS I LOOK FAR AND NEAR

WHAT WILL I SEE AND HEAR

YOU MY ANGEL CALLING

COME TO ME MY DARLING

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Pursuing Oblivion
Danielle Nevin '98


Unable to disappear

In a cloud of smoke

Or to drown in this 80 proof


I drive away and never

Get any further from

the truth.


I choke on these tears

And I fall to my knees

I beg out loud, please!

Let the dawn pass me by.


I need escape from this life

Let me wither away as

I starve and I shake

In this fear I might break.


If I can't lose myself or

Drive to a safe place,

Or drown as these tears

Steal my last breath,


Let me sleep, Lord, please

Let me rest.

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THE ROSE AND THE GRAVE

WHAT GHASTLY HANDS HAVE PULLED ME

FROM MY MOTHERS BREAST?

AND WHAT CRUEL FINGERS HAVE PLUCKED ME

FROM MY EARTHLY VINE?


CAN THE MUDDLED MIND OF MAN KNOW THAT

I LIE HELPLESS ON THIS SILENT GROUND?

DO THEY KNOW THAT I FEEL THE COLD WIND OF ABSTINENCE?

AND KNOW NOT THE WARMTH OF THE SUN, STOLEN BY THIS

SLEEPING STONE.


AND WHEN MY PETALS FAA, WILL ANYONE

MOURN THIS SPOT FOR ME?

OH, HOW I ENVY THESE BONES THAT LIE BELOW ME

EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE ROBBED ME OF MY YOUTH.

THE CHILLY WINDS WILL CLAIM ME

AND SCATTER ME AFAR

WHILE YOU REMAIN ANCHORED TO YOUR MOTHER EARTH.

BUT I FEEL NO ILL WILL TOWARDS THEE.


ALL THAT I ASK IS THAT YOU CRADLE ME

WHEN THE NIGHTS WIND GROWS SILENT,

AND WHISPER TO ME THE SECRETS

OF YOUR SILENT HOME.

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