OPEN MIC ENCORE II
February, 2005


Embarrassing moment:
 Jessica    
 
As I entered high school for my first time,
A little nervous.
Green like a lime!
 
I looked around,
only to realized...
That my friends were no were to be found!
 
I ran all about and didn't know what to do.
Besides..
I'm just a 14 year old, and I'm new!
 
As I ran to the caf.
Not noticing the wet floor.
I slipped, They all started to laugh.
 
I turned the other way,
And started to run.
To my home right away.
 
With all that trouble.
I'm changing schools!
And that's final!

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A NEW START
 BY: REBECCA PARNELL
 
Its the start of a new year
The past is gone, where do we go from here?
Gonna start over make things anew
why dont you make a new start too?
Forgive those who've hurt you
For God would want you to.
Talk to a stranger tell them hi
Tell them Jesus loves them as they go by.
That might be the only time they ever hear
So tell someone this year.
Tell someone, tell them today
don't keep walking, don't turn away.
You've told one but your job isnt done,
go ahead tell another, isn't this fun.
Some will agree and some will smile
Some will wanna know more, some will be a trial.
But all in all remember we must,
Put our faith in God and Him alone trust.

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EVOLUTION
LOYD DAVID BURT
 
We are born to travel our own paths
In a myriad of different ways.
Ostensibly seeking the same truth
We stumble through life's maze.
 
Religions taught appear at odds
And are the root cause of dissent.
Self satisfying lust and greed
Speed us on our way, hellbent.
 
Our one redeeming feature
Is a quality as yet unpriced
Faith, in those early teachings
Be they, Buddha, the Koran or Christ.
 
Yet the major religions are as one
Embellished by each sect or creed.
In essence, we are but organisms
That evolved here on earth to breed.
 
Audacious, corrupt, conceited
The puny microbe, known as man
Is but a piece in Nature's jigsaw
A step in Evolution's plan.

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CONCRETE TEARS
Charlotte Simmons
Secretly Cried, our concrete tears,
They flow to cold stone rivers,
Our hearts filled with electric fears,
We weep, and shake and quiver.
 
Just watch our world of maybelline barriers,
Of disloyalty and deceit,
And they will fall, those secret tears,
The tears of cold concrete.
 
Just listen, our clown like lipstick mouths,
Read from a mechanical script,
These perfect spider webs of vowels,
That keep our true thoughts zipped.
 
And as the web grows bigger,
The concrete tears still fall,
For no longer do we live in a world of truth,
But a sanctuary for fools.

-0-

steam on my mirror
always after a shower
leave the door open?

steve coakwell

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Thief
Sarah Hodgson
she is a thief
she takes from you
and never returns
speak and you are unprotected
 
she makes no moves
she'll do you no harm
but simply absorbs your words
and stores them to be recalled
 
your memories and imagination
your hopes and dreams
your sorrows and losses
you'll never even know they're gone
 
you'll have nothing back from her
never take glory from fame that is rightfully yours
words that escape through her pilfering lips
will give no credit to your name
 
she is a thief
watch for her
say nothing
lose nothing

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Whisper
Linet Cisneros
When I hear your voice
Your not really there
It seems to be only a Whisper, in my ear
When you say my name is it really you I hear
Or is it someone else's whisper
Finding it's way to my ear
And yet I listen without complain
Wanting even more to hear their voice again
Why is it that this whisper captivates me so
Who are you sweet whisper,
Will I ever know
For now I shall just keep listening
To hear you again
Only listening,
To my sweet whispering friend

-0-

I am
umesh ghoshdastider
Not I am a boy
I am not a man yet
I can't feel what I am.
But I believe I am a devotee
For the mankind.
I am not the structure
That I am seen
Not even the mind behind me.
I am the soul, part of god.
Now I am a machine running
By the uncontrolled mind
That only loves its sake.
I am a field of thoughts
Interacting among the powers
Of the universe-I am
A venture of mind and nature.
The truth is still unfold to me
What and where I am.

-0-

The sweetness of the soul
Linn Garden (c) scotland

 In the distant sounds I hear the drum of soulful beats A sweetness out to cherish for the love I long to meet
A glanced smile in the mirror I breathe in his heavenly touch I savour all his sweetness in the air, the light, the lush
Melancholic chimes play out there tuneful melodies I sing out to there rhymes and feel there gentle calls to me
Heartfelt words reached from my nite bring sweetness to my soul A kiss so gently felt the rippled ecstasy 's  my goal
The Moon stands in oblivion with Jupiter and Mars Opening the doors of love with time keys in my hand
I remember all the resonance total love and where to go I know wheels are in motion and that love is in our know
In the realms of our dominion whatís inside this space is true that inner self of knowingness the self thatís me and you
Moving to that one place feeling sweetness of the soul I know this love is special for its essences wrapped in gold
New chapters just beginning its barely started yet begun And  I feel the energy of two that are just one
Totality in motion wrapping sweetness with its breath A union blessed with energy as it travels from the west
 

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As I lay before I sleep,
I delve into my mind so deep,
And as I reach the forbidden door,
I don't think I can go any more.
 
Painful memories rush through my eyes,
Reminding me of love and lies,
The tears roll down my willing face,
Leaving treads for the next tears to trace.
 
My life has had it's ups and downs,
My life has had it's smiles and frowns,
I just try to take it day by day,
And hope everything will come out okay.
 
And as I close my eyes it seems,
The memories carry into my dreams,
Haunting my sleep, I toss and turn,
Swirling together in my mind they churn.
 
And as I sleep, I seldom smile,
As the dreams go by in their own style,
And when I wake and face the dawn,
I know that night they'll carry on.
 
 David Bourgeois

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Only
matt savy
The emptiness inside that truth once escaped,
This barren pit, with walls that are scraped,
The boy inside crying, clawing his way out,
Only to make tracks down this infinite route.
 
Hope gives meaning into oneís life,
Hope is a feeling that gets rid of strife.
Hope is a falsehood that turns out great,
Only if that hope is fulfilled on that date.
 
Where does it end and when does it start?
These are the questions inside my heart.
He who holds these answers is unbounded,
Only to be put in a situation dumbfounded.
 
If I could answer this great life conundrum,
Life would take meaning and not be so humdrum,
If I held the key that ended this monotony,
Only I could walk on water and I could split the sea.
 
I think I have unlocked it I have the key,
I think I have reached the top, I can see,
If this were the case and I could be,
ďOnly,Ē would not be describing me--

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life is unjust, They keep blaming me, i know wut i did,
but they wont let me be.their shuving it in my face, they dont
have to scream,what i did was
wrong,i understand your a team.I know im not doing well but that doesnt
mean that you should have
pushed me. That just made me loose faith and SOME of my wisdom fell.
Some is still with me, but as you kept screaming,i kept beaming.
I lost my temper
i lost my privledges but most of all i lost you. I try to do better,
but wut i tell you, you dont believe the truth.
You think im bad, and i now you think im a failure. Im sorry i made
you move, im sorry i dissapointed you.
Im sorry i mest up your life and im sorry,i didnt do good. I know you think im just a
little mest up kid, im just
misunderstood. I am different from you, and you know that im right.
I will try harder i promise with all my might.
You just have to stop, and just dont talk to me. dont talk to me about school, or dont talk
TO me if my grades are cool.
Just bringing it up makes me feel low, you just dont care,i just want to go. I keep wanting
to leave, bcuz i no ur life
would be better if i just left. Stop and think and you know the truth, your other kids are great
but im the one with the
worst hate. I cry at night just wanting to run away. I have no where to go and i dont belong in
this family. Everyone
would be happy if i just left. understand that one day im gone, dont be surprised, i did it for you,
i might just keep
running and never stop. But all your sadness will drop. You will be happy and thats the truth,
im saying this, bcuz its
for you. IM SITTING ON MY KNEES, BEGGING GOD PLEASE, TO CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. MAYBE IF
I CHANGED YOU WOULD LIKE ME
MORE. i KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME, BUT I THINK ITS BETTER IF I WASNT ME. I TRY TO BE SMART, BUT
EVERYDAY I HAVE A SCAR ON MY
HEART.

Celeste Avina

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Conformity is uniform
It takes you in
Makes you over
And spits you out
It molds and closes the mind
Bends and retracts the levers inside
Conformity is uniform
It swallows the soul
and hides the true being
Leaves less feeling
Alright it's fine
Allow it in
Then shove it out
Like a neighbors sin
Conformity is uniform
It's all like the rest
Following the same drummer
With monotone beats
The sound is too loud
To block out this crowd
Off it goes
Solemnly down
the only road the uniform knows

Peter Cutty

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Beware!
arnyspencer
Beware my friends
Of hidden fears
That shut your eyes
And close your ears
 
They haunt your mind
Like unseen ghosts
We feel them least
But dread them most
 
When the day
Of horror nears
Beware my friends
Of hidden fears

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Confusion
By: Catarina

 Have you ever been in a place where everyone is the same?
Where people ponder and sing?
Where life is a storybook, just as predictable as a school day?
Everyone knows everything,
And nothing is different any day or time?
Where the story of life just continues and never ends?
Where the waters of the Nile flow just as fast as a racecar never needing to stop?
And you are in the middle, watching all of this confusion, and no one seems to mind?
No one stopping.
No one listening to what you have to say?
When the night turns to day
And life is just as confusing asÖ the puzzle with no picture.
I've heard if this place, it's called my life, it's filled with confusion.
And has no light,
It's a place I like to call a confusing world,
Everything is moving,
Not stopping,
Never ending,
The noise gets louder and louder,
And it pounds deep into your heart,
And you are lost in Confusion?

-0-

A Surreal Model
 -Page Dunn '05

A surreal model,
a sculpture of angry smoke,
clouds the air,
 
drugged and drunk,
I see beautiful colors,
electric colors,
 
blue,
green,
pink,
purple and amber smear my vision,
so beautiful,
they seem so innocent, but they are not.
 
They are a metaphor,
of normality,
not immortality.
 
Musical pictures swirling around my head,
I will move each note,
just as I please,
Phish and Pink Floyd speak beautiful speechless rhymes,
only I know what they are saying to me.
 
The screaming record spins out of control,
beneath this naked crowd or torment,
I am sleeping,
never to be woken.
 
I am peaceful,
as this music flows through my body,
entering through my ears and eyes,
and leaving through my soul.
 
I will forever remember this aroma,
the music,
the beautiful colors,
the way i know I will never feel the same again,
this magnificent feeling,
the taste and smell of music and colors,
I wish I could be this way forever.
                    

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This Table
Richard Betts 
This is the table where I chose to end it all,
The decision that made my whole life fall.
At this table I thought real hard,
Until I flipped that last and final card.

Still at night I lie awake
Thinking of that life I had to take.
Knowing I could never do well,
I wish this table would burn in hell.

-0-

If I could take my life
         And slice it with a knife
The pain would let me now Iím alive
 
The Darkness in my soul consumes
         My waking moments
Filled with death and gloom
 
Light doesnít come with joy
         Light comes with pain
Sorrow fills humanity
         Sound escapes my screams
 
Who hears the cry of the hurting
         Who answers when they call
Their souls pass through time
         Like smoke in the wind
 
I reach out my hand
         To the lost and dying
They slip through my grip
 
Powerless to sustain their life
         I fail to make a difference
They fall in to the trap
 
I see the pain in their eyes
         As they tumble down through the years
Suffering meets suffering
 
Death encompasses all
         If I could take my life
And slice it with a knife
I would give my life away
 
If I could take my life
         To end ones pain
Gladly I would go
 
To save their soul
         To give them relief
From the agony of their existence
         I would gladly give my life
 
Because the earth will turn
         Alive or dead does not matter
I would give my life
         To relieve their dread
 
Life without pain is death
         To die is to win
To live is to suffer
         Seconds turn to minutes
 
Life turns to ashes
         Fire gives off smoke
Death always wins
         Pain comes from breathing
 
Time continues its path
         It weaves a trail of sorrow
Destiny turns to ash

Timothy A. Greenlaw 

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SELF-LOATHING SON
Tom Friel
 
Oh selfish heart
Your blood be it shared
Paternal is the pulse
Life be not spared
 
Words they must rise
Vacant stares stare at me
How shallow be the man
Who writes as he bleeds

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Do You Know
Joni Ann Hale
In the darkness of night
I hear you approach from behind
All the sugar coated lies
have become our truths
While beginning to realize that all your honesty
is part of your insecurities.
The ringing of the phone has stopped
and I have come to find solace
in the air that you don't breathe
All my grief keeps multiplying
under the microscope I am
I'm tired of all the cheap thoughts
tired of all the heat
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna live like this
I just want a chance to be by your side.
You bleed the way I do
your pain is so untrue
You masquerade this life
with the secrets I keep
I refuse to be your doll anymore
I don't wanna lose
if I tell the truth
and the truth has come to be
you may never be
completely happy with me
for nothing I ever do
I good enough for you.
For once just shutup
and listen to what I say
forget the now,
what's the matter
don't you understand what I say
don't you get how I feel
are these words so complex
that you realize my truth now,
Remember for now
that I still love you
though all your criticism has left me dry.
I drink the water at your feet
and kiss them when I am through
but you have no feelings on the subject
and I live to make you happy
like a stupid girl would.
So go make your point
make it while I sit and stare
stare at the body
I have come to hate for you
Its never gonna be the same
I need shelter
but I can't come to you
for I believe
you have no faith in me
As the sun comes up
I come to you
with my head in my hands
while I lie and tell you
I don't cry for you.

-0-

Speak with your mind not with your mouth
Love with the heart, before the body
Judge with your heart instead of eyes
Close your ears and open your mind
Then life's true lessons you shall find
 
Give your soul, instead of your time
Live by your self-taught lessons
Sleep with the dream of awakening
Fly with the wings of imagination
For God gave us all this free nation
 
Why speak when you can listen?
Why hate when you can forgive?
Life is good
Life is bad
Life is a test
So do your best
 
More than all learn to love
To think,to smile
For as you know your loved ones will only be here awhile

ShrukenHeart

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Rage:
Nathan S.
This Rage burns without cease,
 It burns deep inside,
It can chew up both man and beast,
 This rage eats one up and leaves them to die,
It consumes without mercy,
 and on every living moment it feasts,
For revenge this wildfire is thirsty,
 this is why we must not let it abide.

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 SHE'S DEAD
tabby 

she lay there still as a log eyes barely open breathing slowing down heart beating fast its quiet so quiet she can hear the blood rushing though her veins her life flashes before her she sees herself smoking crack and drinking vodka she sees her father yelling her mother crying her sisters staring she sees her boyfriend leaving her because she's pregnant she sees herself abonding her baby in the back of a car she sees her self taking that last hit and ending up in an alley she lay there still as a log eyes closed not breathing

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SMILE
Bhavna Kakkat 
Always keep smiling,
it really doesnít cost a thing
smile lavishly, donít be a miser
with a smile you are never a loser
spread a smile everywhere
like a disease, make it epidemic
it is an easy and a lovely trick
to let others know you really care
and the results are also very quick
A smile is the best ornament one can wear
wearing it, everyday you get a new friend
always smile, make it your fashion trend
smile is the language of all countries
it has no limit or any boundaries
it only knows how to make others happy
to show them
they are wanted and cared.
so friends, its time to spread
A smile every day, every second
no matter whether itís a foe or friend

       -0-

me
jessica krotzer
 
who am i if not myself
am i you
am i even real
do you know who i am
do you even see me
who am i
every morning i ask myself this
every morning i get the same answer
you are who ever you want to be
i just want to be me
but who am i
am i what i do
am i what i say
am i what you  want me to be
who am i
am i just me

     -0-

                 ARTHROSES        
 MICHAEL SYLFAD AFOLABI       
                    I
Words too
move, they do and would
at least in trickles
like wine poured
in glass;
gleaming, glistening . . .
listening, waiting was I
for them.
 
Slick lips hoard them
without reasons
as if for treason;
patient, yet must I be
patient
like a patient
awaiting a Doc's scope

-0-       

Road Rash
David
The story of my death was oh so sour,
It started when on my motorcycle i hit 100 miles per hour,
Next thing I knew I was sliding on concrete,
The center divider was the last thing in this world I would meet.

-0-

*Just to cry*
     -Taylor K.
As you leave me here,
Just to cry,
I think that maybe,
I would die,
On this floor that I lie,
I think "Surrender now and prepare to die",
As darkness shatters over me,
You leave me here just to bleed,
And just to think you thought,
You knew mw,
I thought I loved you,
But that's not true,
When I'm around you,
I feel so blue

-0-

Days Forgotten
Matt Frye
The happy days forgotten,
left in the darkest place.
So many bad days.
 
Its hard to remember;
The good days seem few.
The bad days so many.
 
Bad days make darkness
The darkness is overwhelming;
The darkness is suffocating.

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Second Step Prayer
~~~~Aimiee R.~~~~~
 
Help me God
For I have no control
Satan is calling
He's taking my soul
Whispering voices
So foul, yet, so sweet
Before I know it, I'm admitting defeat
Humbly, on my knees
For help I am pleading
I don't want to surrender
But part of me is needing
It's a pretty big order
And I've asked You before
But, this time when I knock
Please, answer the door
My life is in ruins
And You're the answer, I'm told
Take me into your warmth
Out here it's so cold

-0-

 

Ticking time life flits away,
burning embers soul degrades,
mortal memory slides to obscurity,
thoughts of morrow pointless wonder,
energy bounding never knowing winds of chill,
a life lifting thrill of body chemistry bliss of glee of crushing dryness,
crumbling strength crushing to a scenery,
another layer above a grain,
water flows as blood no longer goes,
and in the end it does burn in fire,
water no longer flows replaced by glow,
then darkness reigns, but not forever,
as darkness dies and comes together,
all death is only dead for a while,
does clump and join comes fire again,
one day blood will run again of no mind of known aflame,
darkness in this head still grows blind,
the throes whom once began,
the path to the end,
the end.

W. A. Flynn

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Shadows
Katherine Lee 

Shadows cast upon the wall
Moving silently without a sound
My shadow will always be there
Until the sun goes down

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What if life was just a dream,
Of the ones who burn in Hell.
And the wat we live out all our days,
Are in the stories that they tell.
Would that explain the pain I fell,
And the evil that I do.
Or do I just try to blame someone,
For the heartache I've ben thru.
Could I ever get the thoughts I have,
That focus on my death.
To change the path of where I'll go,
When I take my final breath.
If the life I've lived was not my own,
Just created by another.
And the woman who gave birth to me,
Was not even my mother.
Is it possible these thoughts I have.
I should not even bother.
Cause if I'm right, there is no God,
And the Devil is my father.

danotis

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Life
Kristy R Ryan
Life's a bitch and then you die,
All i ask is why?
Why was it me that got abused?
Coz now my head is messed up and im confused.
My life is a complete mess,
But there's a few things for me to confess,
Im a liar and a cheat,
Because there's a habit i cannot beat.
Speed is a drug i shouldn't take but who cares anyway?
Coz in the end im the one who has to pay,
A needle goes through my vein,
Then away goes all my pain.
All i need is some love and affection,
Which might lead me in the right direction,
I think i have found Mr right,
But to see him i'll need to take a very long flight.
I love him coz he is so careing and smart,
And to me he is willing to open up his heart,
Will he be able to keep me out of strife,
And maybe save me from taking my own life?
It's just like living in hell,
Because only destiny will tell,
Life's a bitch and then you die.
-0-
 
Me being unloved it's so hard to say,
Memories that I have will never die.
They will always be with me by my side,
My memories will never go away.
Long ago memories are here to stay,
Me being open i told my mom with pride.
My unlove feelings are nothing to hide,
For now on im open until death day.
Now i'm not scared to talk I have no fear,
She told me I was love, now I feel bad.
Because I thought all memories were true,
Then I heard a little voice in my ear.
It told me to think twice and don't get mad,
Because your mother will always love you.
LaShawnda Holt

-0-

 
"Loosing Yourself"
megan
You've killed all the nerves inside of me. My body's going numb, head feels like it's ready to explode, the warmth of tears rushing down my cheeks. You're like the tide, you're unstable waves. Can't stop for nothing, breaking promises, killing all hope;I just can't cope! You've got scars up your arms from slicing away. You sicken me inside & out, everytime i think of you i just wanna throw-up. Go do your drugs & slice your wrist, see how much i care. I don't know how you can look in the mirror & be proud of the monster you became. Look at yourself, killing your body, burning your mind, taking advantage of a beautiful thing! Loosing yourself & everyone around you; you're only letting the drugs become your friend. You need to find yourself before you're gone forever. Every tear from my eye, is just another blood drop from your viens, letting you go is the hardest of all things. I'm starving for love, you're starving for drugs. You're out of my reach, I can't save you from the !
 darkness that's swallowing you whole; I can't pull you out of the pit you have feel in ... lost somewhere in hell.

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Immortality
Verlaine tipton

The Dawns of Forever,
Caress my face.
It's soft sweet whisper
Derived from Eternity,
Resplendent in fine lace.
 
The Rays of Eras,
Cast their glow upon we,
Who seek to serve
Till the end of days,
The One who sets us free.
 
The Suns, and Moons and Stars of past,
Aglow in their wondrous beauty,
Encompass those who seek to find
The solution to an enigma
That will never be made to see.
 
The inconsistent Twilights
Of olden days and Eternity
Cast their eerie but reassuring beam
On those who wish upon
The Secret of Immortality.

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QUESTIONS
BY:KRISTEN WILSON

A GIRL ASKED A GUY IF HE THOUGHT SHE WAS PRETTY.
 HE SAID...NO.
 
SHE ASKED HIM IF HE WOULD WANT TO BE WITH HER FOREVER...AND HE SAID NO.
 
 SHE THEN ASKED HIM IF SHE WERE TO LEAVE WOULD HE CRY, AND ONCE AGAIN HE REPLIED WITH A NO.
 
 SHE HAD HEARD ENOUGH. AS SHE WALKED AWAY, TEARS STREAMING DOWN HER FACE. THE BOY GRABBED HER ARM AND SAID... YOU'RE NOT PRETTY YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I NEED TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER!
 
 AND I WOULDN'T CRY IF YOU WALKED AWAY... I'D DIE...

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HAVE FAITH
 DAVID WADE

 

AS YOU WALK THROUGH THIS LIFE
YOU WILL FIND IT FULL OF STRIFE
AND AS YOU WALK THROUGH THIS LAND
YOU WILL FIND NO ONE TO HOLD YOUR HAND
AS YOU WALK IN A WORLD OF GRAY
YOU JUST PRAY FOR ONE MORE DAY
BUT IT SEEMS AS WE GROW OLDER
THE WORLD JUST GETS COLDER
THEN ALL AT ONCE WE HEAR A VOICE
FROM THE SKY
AND SAYS I AM WITH YOU SO DON'T CRY
I WILL REMOVE THE MOUNTAINS IN YOUR WAY
AND GIVE YOU SIGHT AND A BRIGHTER DAY
SO PUT JESUS IN YOUR HEART
AND YOU WILL GET A BRAND NEW START
SO TRUST IN HIM AS YOU LIVE
AND TO YOU HE WILL GLADLY GIVE
                  

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Environmental Ignorance
by Patty Apostolides, 2005
Rich earth, soil ready to be seeded
Fields of green grass, tall solid trees
How long will you remain naive
Like us?
No longer do you belong to us
Your people, but to
Gigantic chemical companies
That pollute your very existence,
Your waters, your land, the air we breathe -
Without us knowing about it.
 
Technical corridor, toxic corridor
When land near chemical companies
Becomes polluted with toxins
So much so, that it cannot be used
For Farming or living.
Then will the earth give a great shudder
And wither away, mourning
The loss of her youth,
Mourning the future of her people.
-0-

 

13th Line
  by Jameel Heath
Time abruptly ceasing to exist,
the lords of death angrily shaking their fists,
darkness closing all around,
I scratch the love slowly off my list;
flowers unfurling like some lost rhyme,
burn the sally with a dime,
scenes of something you shall see,
I am nothing if not a crazy mime;
you are me, I am you,
can't God just tell me what to do!?!
into eternity in my I,
into eternity I slowly flew;
I can see past the grasp of night,
AM somewhere deep within my flight,
The light is deceptively closing in,
AQUARIAN age begins with blight,
MESSIAH calling forth my sight;
this hollow Earth I can't abide,
in darkness, in thought, so wearily hide,
lost in space or time, I no longer know,
the zodiac so long we've had to ride,
can't you see? can't you see?!?
good and evil are on the same side;
folded together and ever embracing,
the end of duality is what we're facing.

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DEAR MOM
---BY RICHARD DENNEY 16

U NEVER LISTENED
2 WHAT I HAD 2 SAY ABOUT MY LIFE
AND HOW IM GAY ITS STUPID YOU NEVER WERE THERE 4 ME ONLY WHEN SOMEONE DIED BUT NOW IM DEAD AND I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D CRY
 
 
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I have a father.
Yes I do.
But a dad?
Oh no.
That's not true.
Does he love me?
I couldn't say.
Does he want me?
Not today.
Once upon a time I had a dad.
But then one day he got mad.
Ever since then it's been bad.
Oh,what I could of had.
A dad who loved me a dad who cared.
One of which I wouldn't be scared.
One I could talk to every day.
And who was the best in every way.
But I hate him now.
So fuck him back.
You can go live in a broken down shack.
Get out of my life.
Get out of my head.
Fucking hell I wish you were dead!!

jillB 

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It seems to be a waste
kenny ritchie II 
these days i watch the air fill with ash
burning on a stake of an unmistaken past
lost are those who plunder and wait for
their eyes to glow with rubies allowing greed to fill empty hearts of people who dont know what they're doing how i long for this incomparable globe to sit still i dont want to face reality who does noone because reality is what it is until its over and done if they ever come ill run if i dont make it dont shun know that i did not give up as some may think just know that i couldnt get out of that little pinch it musn't belong now for the end to appear i know that its coming so i fear

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DONíT WORRY
krazy_gurl
 
DONíT WORRY? Its all going to be fine but they just donít understand!
Iím so messed up inside my head as I sit here as I cry writing this to myself,
Why do I always feel alone in this word hoping it will go away by itself.
My brown skin is my identity but its something that will never change,
I live with this pain knowing my mistakes may not always be a gain.
I feel so down but what can I say to those who love me, about the battle within.
This pain kills me everyday and every night, scaring me from myself I just donít know where to begin.
 
I am so tired of fighting with myself tired of being this person that everyone wants me to be, I want to live for myself and be I want to be that person in the future I foresee.
But it all comes at a cost leaving the family I have been there for me for twenty years, or fall into the hands of forbidden love which could end in tears.
Life comes at a cost for a brown skin where so much pain and disappointment remains why canít I just be normal and live that normal life where I marry the one that impresses my old man.
 
So much hope, so many dreams that everyone have seen in me will shatter before the eyes, this guilt makes me think is it worth breaking all ties.
The pointing fingers and the dagger eyes from the Asians that like to degrade me because your with a black guy, well I proud to say heís with me
I will wipe away those tears and be strong and every time you hit me I will come back even stronger. I will conquer all my fears and obstacles and be that person I want to be, So I can say  donít worry because itís going to be fine as only I can understand!

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30 January, 2005 ≠
Insanity turns 57 today.
* Gandhi was assassinated on 30 January, 1948 when he was on his way to offer prayers at his Birla Residence, New Delhi.
B.S.S.Kameshwara Rao

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GOD IS CALLING
paul england
He's calling my name\he'll come again
He's calling me\to set me free\
he's been before\he's back for me
To show a place\were things come free
No money no power\no pain to see
No money or hands\our souls float free
No drugs in demand\god is calling see
A light this place\to were we go\is this a
place\we've been before
The fear we feel\before were there
If we knew\would we care
God is back\he's calling again
God is near\he's calling my name

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SMOTHER
SARAH HODGSON
 
i'm weak
do you see it
do i quake
do i quiver
do i shudder
as i whisper
make it stop
make it end
take the pain
it's not my friend
i want so much
but feel so low
is this the end
do you know
 
system overload
senses numbed
where's that noise
coming from
it's in my head
it's all around
every angle, every way
every week, every day
crave the silence
deny the noise
please just smother
that hidden voice

 

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