OPEN MIC ENCORE I

Updated September 1, 2002

 

An Orange sat on the table.
Brilliant orange with rough, rough skin - a sea of craters and endless bumps.
It sat motionless on the table.
Smooth brown table, angular black trim, glassy shine lost over time.
An Orange sat on the table.
Covered with white furry carpet, velvet rug pure color fade.
It sat motionless on the table.
Aged Cherry, lacquer brown face, several landmark burns in place.
An Orange sat on the table.
Such a sweet, sweet orange gone to shameful waste.
It sat motionless on the table.
A usual brown table, rectangular, three pieces long.
An orange sat on the table.
Feeding fungus, white cool fungus, going to pathetic waste.
It sat motionless on the table.
Until the next morning, when it was gone.

Sam Vitelli 

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WAR
James E. Hilliard
 
I met him on a field of blood
we raised our guns to shoot
My aim was good and his was bad
He missed me by a foot
I ran to where I made him fall
My nerves all piqued and raw
He cried and cried and then he died
I'm so sorry after all
I'd shot him in his youthful heart
And tore his mother's world apart.

~#~

To 2pac on his birthday (a gift)
ILHOM IKRAMOV

What do you feel when you hear 2pac?
Gangster slang music, nigga face, drugs and thug?
Then you see, your thoughts are really foolish and you are wrong
For me he was a sentimental poet, talented artist and the greatest rapper of the World!
In his lyric you heard only slang words
But why didn't you want to understand his main thoughts ?
His aim was making equal World for all
And you didn't even thought of it, you wanted him fall
He wanted live, he wanted make some changes with out hits
But all you did, you said he is a danger to your kids.
He wanted black to live as well as white
And next your step was crying : " nigga die!"
He was a man like you or me
He wanted all the people to be free
You newer listened to his wards
You thought about your own dirty thoughts,
You want do money for your own (wanted money for your own) any way,
By killing people, betraying brothers even sleazy way!
He was the barrier on your way
And you decided this time to betray .
When he was shut, you all said : "Thank you GOD!"
But now you should take care of your own buts
Because your master who told you " Betray!"
Now will kill you and do it in a sleazy way!
And now, on 29-th birthday of 2pac Shakur
I still see raciest faces, smiling fool
But brother I want you to know, your changes still rising
They are getting bigger and they will go on.
And I hope one day you will be here with us,
The aim of making changes now on us
Hope you can see brother, your work is doing good
And I hope brother, you will help us and protect us from your hood!
                                 (19.04.2000 / 23:18)      

~#~

The journey.
By Samani Carel Tupufia.

Air to my nostrils
In to my system and through my lungs
Open my eyes to the bath of my life
Going up hill and
Sliding down valleys
Is a game to my throne
My army and my sword
Is the protector to my flesh
Lands have been conquered
Giants killed and demons
Taken back to eternal damnation
But there is still a gap with in me
That I hardly fulfill
I thought winning battles
And conquering lands
Can fill this gap
But for I was for told that my
Journey is been written but
The destination is unknown
So my last wish for my life
Is to find the one that can
Fill the gap and
Bring balance to
My life.
~#~
 

Willow was Not a Gnome

by: Ernie Grignard
 
Look at you!
You feeble, fickle, man of folly!
I warned you.  I gave you ominous glares.
You trusted the gnomes, and
Now you pay the price.
Willow is not a gnome.  You could have trusted him.
Instead, you are
 
Pennyless, homeless, catless, and alone
 
Life is a bookshelf
Death is a piece of tin
Mortality is a cigarette
Immortality is the Highlander in his prime
 
Hot dogs are delicious.
Men are malodorous even to the most
naive of olfactories.
Never question the contents of a man.
Always question the contents of your
Hot dogs.

~#~

Life is a struggle along the path toward Death
Death brings with it the end of Pain and Joy
Happiness and Sorrow become neutral
Abstracts of a forgotten time

David Dozier
~#~
Sorrow
alexandra klimczak 
 
Take the sorrow
Take it, leave tomorrow
There is nothing left to find
Youíre infected with pain, your blind
 
The clouds hover over your head.
The rain waits Ďtil you kill yourself instead.
You always want to leave, but you never stay.
Absorb the lies; believe, until itís too late to pay.
 
You feel like your time is at an end,
You tell me, Iím your only friend;
A hope for the ages,
one past your rages.
 
Take the sorrow-
Leave tomorrow.
Stop your lies, you donít want to die.
End your goodbyes, smile, ďI love youĒ cry.
 
My love I worry I care
I fear for the day you dare.
 
Take my love, my soul,
Bathe in it Ďtil youíre whole.
Grab all the strength you can borrow
And throw away your sorrow.
~#~
 

Today
Jonathan Major

 
    Sh!*,fu@#,Gotd#*....
Felling it today,It's flowing today,can't stop it today,Woke up in the playground today,inspired today.
    I'm not asking please today,i'm shoving it down your throat today.
Taste it because I want you to,eat it because it's good for you.
    I'm mad today,sad today,scared for the outcome of humanity today.
                                GOOD is laughed at today...
                                Evil is taking over today...
    The youth of today are wired all wrong today,they don't have a song today,they don't belong today.
    In the midst of the sandstorm I'm in today,I somehow have my bearings today.
    When We're forced to WAKE UP! TODAY! Will Mother Nature rid us like fleas today?
    When I woke from my dream today,I SCREAMED TODAY....

~#~

 No more
jason carey

 

I canít describe the pain I feel inside,
I trusted you and now these feelings I canít hide.
How could you do this? How can you hurt your best friend,
You took so much when I had nothing to lend.
I love you but those words seem like a curse,
I am just a person who cares but you toss me around like a purse.
I never did you wrong even though I have told you some lies,
This is the moment I can feel my heart die.
I still believe because loves as strong as hell,
I was starting to raise up but you shot and I fell.
The tears just keep falling out of my eyes,
But good guys always finish last and this is just no surprise.
Itís not all your fault because Iím crazy too,
There too much blood to stop I donít know what to do.
If you only knew how I really felt about you,
Sometimes I put on a front but I know itís true.
There much more to say but I canít face the words,
So bye for now Iím going to fly with the birds.

~#~

I'm blind to the illusion now,
I feel my body start to fall.
Scared now I start to shake,
Lost now I start to fake.
 
And you can't hear me if I scream,
And no one hears me when I scream.
Life is bleeding all around,
Razors, scissors cut the sounds.
 
Slice and burn my life away,
I can't resist another day.
I'm in the scissors in the blade.
I feel my life start to fade,
 
And if I bleed will I care?
And when I bleed will you be there?
My life is tearing at the seams,
and no-one hears me when I scream.

samantha bond

~#~

Letting you go
Jessica Florez
 
That look you gave me last night,
Made me want to never leave your sight,
The smile you gave me made me cry,
Baby I don't want to ever say bye,
When you wiped away my tears,
You pushed away my many fears,
Every time our lips meet,
The faster my heart beats,
I don't want to ever let you go,
In a few days I have to I know,
All those great times we had together,
I wish they would last forever,
Every time we sit in your truck,
Why do I have such bad luck?
I wish we were together for a longer time,
God please give me a sign,
I don't want to watch u drive away,
Baby why can't you stay?
I guess it's to late now,
All I can say is wow,
"All My Life" I no longer will hear you sing,
If I could wish for one more thing,
It would be for one more day with you,
And a lifetime that stays true.

~#~

Alone Again
Nick Theisen
 
I sit deep in thought, alone again.
Thinking why me why now.
I see the lovers touching each other,
And the smiles that seem to warm up the place.
I find strength to go up to a fine lady to only say a few words,
Dumbfounded I turn away wishing I could do better.
 
I hear the whispers from friends online saying what a great catch I am,
And Yet I am alone once again.
The nights so long and so lonely I fret to fall asleep.
I awake from my dreams to be disappointed
That another night has passed and I am still alone.
 
I dream of being in love,
To come home to that special someone,
To treat them like royalty,
As I get drunk with their presence
And my heart is pounding, excited, wanting.
 
I am lonely, and I pray to God for Guidance, for him to show me the way
I feel at a loss, my soul and heart yearning to be found.
I want to be noticed in this world where nobody has the time.
To be free and full of life.
 
Yet I am alone once again.

~#~

I don't know
Jan
 
All these dreams
turn to nightmares along the road
the road that seems
so long
 
Broke my heart again
it's alright, I'll take the pain
just tell me when
I'll leave
 
This cold rain
will comfort my homegoing now
or drive me insane
I don't know
 
How can this be?
someone won't sleep this night
might be me
must be me
 
Sorry my friend
these rainbows become straight cold lines
which I try to bend
it's futile
 
Tonight the red wine
will play the part of the king
sure, I'll be fine
I don't know
 
One last glance
in your beautiful green eyes
no second chance
don't look back
 
Closing the door
the playground is empty now
we are no more
now I know
 
Finally, I know.

~#~

Painful Days Tear Filled Nights

Rose
 
Here i am once again in my hole of tear filled sorrow,
nothing to ease my pain only this knife to cut again,
the blood drips on my silky sheets,
i lay on my bed to sleep,
dream of terrible things,
i wake for another painful day,
my family is fighting again,
i get the looks from the kids at my school,
hear them whisper as i walk by,
"look its that fag that dike."
i go home to be alone,
in my room i hear my parents fighting some more.
"u are nothing but a dirty whore."
"u are cheating on me."
he sess to my Mom,
"no im not."
she sess but gets slapped again,
so i lay there in my bed,
waiting for another painful day ahead.

The End.

~#~

DARKNESS...AND MERCY NEVER SEEN
DARKNESS AND TIME...FALLING TOGETHER
I SEE A FROG...AS RED AS BLOOD
I SEE A CHILD AND I SEE A KITTEN AND I SEE A TEAR DROP
I AM SO TIRED OF THIS
NOT ME...NOT YOU...AND SO MUCH SADNESS
A BIBLE IN THE RED BOX...
A GUN IN THE...GRASS...BLUE METAL
AND A RED ROSE PEDAL
HAPPY...BLUE...RAGE!
A SPIDER IN A CAGE 
WE...DON'T SEE WHAT YOU SEE
PLEASE IF YOU WILL CRY...FOR ME

RICK SIHLER

~#~

Why?
Holly Christian
 
Why do you talk about me as if you know about me?
Why do you thing that you can make me feel like dirt?
Is it because you think your so much better then everyone else?
Well what makes you think that you can't be treated the way you are to others?
You can't control how or what other people do,
Just because you don't approve.
The only thing that you can do to other people is,
Make them feel how they don't want to feel.

~#~

Images
deepshree 

I seek your images in the
Turbulence of the seaÖ
Your love
In the tumult of the rainÖ
Your caress
In the dusk
Your love
In the dawnÖ.
I seek you
In the warmth of the sun.

~#~

Sun Blaze
Nicole M. Stevenson
As the sun blazes in the sky
So does the thought of why
I ended up alone in shy
Afraid of different emotions
So many sorted notions
I was confused but not anymore
About why you couldn't love
Simply because you were not ready
I knew you were still a baby
A man attached to his mother
Still unable to love another
I was left out in the cold
Another woman who never been told
Surely don't fall for a mama's boy
Infinitely your like his toy
Although they will play with you for a little while
Sometimes we make bad decisions
I have to live with those choices

~#~

I rest for awhile on the crack of sanity,
time flows smoothly through my scare
                 filled
            veins.
A lonely
blackness
drips into my eyes,
making an ooze that moves with
pain,
my fingers become blood.
My hair feels like rusted
                 down
            wire.
My lips run through a desert of
loneliness,
searching for you. 
The stars fall from there place,
I hope to catch one.
To find a miracle, to find a
home.

Nathan James Reid

~#~

Helen Betty
Larry Bowden

Helen Betty, I love you
Helen Betty, I love you
 
You left your home in pursuit of a dream
How could you've known life would be mean
You took a chance, though you were so young
With a light in your heart, you hoped would burn on
The storm clouds gathered and blocked the day
Your precious life was taken away
But the wind and the spirit will carry your name
And the world will know of the injustice and shame
 
Helen Betty, I love you
Helen Betty, I love you
 
Through all the tears and through all the pain
Our love for you, will never change
Yet at times, we wonder what could have been
The lives you would have touched
The loved you would have given
 
You would come back a teacher one day
But you've touched my heart so far away
I will never turn away from you
I will put into words so all may know
That your name will never die
And your star will light up the sky
 
I had a dream I entered the land
Allowed by his grace for that was his plan
And you came over and took my hand
And led me to the one so I'll understand
And then I faced you filled with new life
I gazed in your eyes they were shinning so bright
You said my prayer had been answered today
Then I spoke the words I've been longing to say
 
Helen Betty, I love you
Helen Betty, I love you
 
And your name will not fade away
And your love is in me to stay
 
Helen Betty, I love you
Helen Betty, I love you

~#~

SCATTERING   DREAMS
    FROM THE DESIRES OF LOVELY TALES,   
   OUR EYES CAPTURE A VIVID DREAM,T HE DREAM IS WOVEN WHILE THE LIDS,      
   ARE CLOSED AND WHILE THE LIDS ARE OPEN.,
   I TOO DREAMED OF LOVE ,MY DREAMS WERE AS BEAUTIFUL AS A GLASS PAINT-
   ING,
 
   BUT THE ALL MIGHTY THREW A BUCKET FULL OF COLD ICE ON IT,
     THE RAINBOW COLOURS WERE WASHED AWAY,
   AND EACH PIECE WAS AS PRECIOUS TO ME AS A CHILD TO HIS MOTHER BUT,
   THE MIGHTY HAND SNATCHED THE CHILD  FROM THE MOTHER,
      AND LEFT THE MOTHER TO CRY IN DESPAIR,
  WHY DID HE DO THIS ?
  WHY HE MADE MY EYES BLEED FROM THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTION
           
              BY
                      SHREYOSHI

~#~

ETERNAL FLAME
Alan G.T. Mason
 
There an Eternal Flame burning in my heart,
Your love for me was all the fuel it needed,
As long as it burns we will never part,
For so long as our love lasts, believe it.
 
The Flame is burning so very bright,
Itís changing darkness into light,
Where ere I walk with you tonight,
I know my worldís gonna be all right.
 
There is a sense I am in a race,
I feel at times I canít keep pace,
The flame burns bright and is getting stronger,
My heart I know is growing fonder.
 
My love for you grows even stronger,
As the time were apart gets ever longer,
And the flame burns on never waning,
And so my love does this endless waiting.
 
The time is nigh; the hourís is close,
Iíll soon be standing in your land,
To see your hair and touch your face,
To hold you close my NA Friend.

~#~

Inside
 
Locked inside a crazy mind
Reality is hard to find
Dreams fall into nightmares hand
Every breath we die again
Dark and light seem the same
Day and night stay insane
Blackest veil clouds the brain
Evermore demons remain
So saving grace, we are alone
All false hopes turn to stone
At every turn a scary face
No end to this maddening place
Sedition plans the souls erase
Perdition waits for cold embrace
Screams and cries fill the rooms
Rage spells out immortal doom
Hiding inside this endless pain
Psychosis paints awful stains
Trapped in here with no relief
We are not allowed to speak

Darkheart 7/2002

~#~

Love Is Forbidden
Jonathan
 
I've touched the hem of perfection
Her voice an enchanting song
I've tasted her forbidden lips
Now things have gone all wrong
 
I have done something labeled taboo
Now the price to pay has risen
I have crossed the line of prohibited pleasure
Now I rot in my agonizing prison
 
These emotions of constant torment
This life of endless pain
This conscience of mine keeps me chained
Two inches from becoming insane
 
I'm haunted now by memories of love
The images flash through my head
Of a time and place where things were right
But now the love is dead
 
I move on now, I continue my travel
To seek another to love
But deep inside I realize it's useless
Cause it can never be what it once was

~#~

                              STICKS AND STONES
                                    Ericka Moore
 
You've wounded me so severe that my mind will never be clear
Those nights I cried myself to sleep...
My brain was wreaking havoc to in return make you weep
 
You've got it all... yeah, that's what people think
When dark creeps around, that untouchable image begins to sink
You took my spirit, my confidence, and all that was pure
But your love, your support, your acceptance, could have simply been the cure
So why should I love you, because God says so...
When you hurt me so bad, my thoughts could kill you with one blow
 
It's okay...I'm a big girl...I made it on through
It was the pain, the struggle, and the suffering that made me... stronger than you           

~#~

I'm so angry...
 Antonia Huber

I'm so angry when you lie to me and I hate it when you deny it to me. You
get me so angry when you walk away and tell me i'm in your way. I feel like
you hate me! I thought you loved me well it doesn't show. My mother said not to marry you she said that I wouldn't love you but i do... i do love you.
I'm so angry when you yell at me it feels like your abusing me. I can't love you anymore or be with you i know and i hope this makes you angry because then you could feel the way i feel so angry....

~#~

Death in my corner
Beth

how can i love you and hate you? my love for you is fading, i am fading. back into the shadows i creep, i crawl. sit and fade away, i die and disappear unnoticed, i rot and decay unseen, no one blinks an eye at me as i cry, as i fall away from it all, as i sit in my corner and die concealed by my own shadow of hate and torment i hate you now, no love remains, my heart fell into the shadows, so did i. now i fade, now i die in my shadowed corner of death.

~#~

mummy
H
 
 my eyes are filling up,
 but i don't know why,
 all day, everyday, when i see your face i cry.
 
 a picture is the only way,
 i could ever remember you,
 the memories stored away are to faded to be true.
 
 where did you go?
 are you happy where you are?
 amongst the soft moon and bold stars.
 
 are you ever coming back?,
 please say its so,
 i never meant to hurt you, to make you go.
 
 daddy says your gone,
 and you won't be coming home,
 why'd you have to leave me and daddy on our own?.
 
 but no worries mummy,
 because daddy says we'll cope,
 he secretly stashed away some sugar coated hope.
 
 my eyes have stopped crying,
 but now i realize why they had,
 because when you died mummy, me and daddy were sad.

~#~

 
Love, so dant, so foolish and still we lack the need to love.
Once, I have loved, and again I have been played like a fool.
Why do we play this game, why do we love... why do we??

After days of lying in bed crying away the hurt i wonder again and
again why do we play this game...

Josh

~#~

 

You took my heart away
When I saw you on that sunny day
I walked over and sat next to you
I looked into your eyes and they were crystal blue
I have to tell you how I feel
If I don't my wounds will never heal
I want you next to me
The bond between us will always be
This must be gods plan
I know inside you understand
Age keeps me from romance
But when I get the chance
I'll be yours

                Jeremy Little

~#~

The key to my heart was once lost.
My heart was told that my true and only love would receive it.
They would unlock my heart, keep it and cherish it.
Through my whole life I have been looking for the one whom holds the key.
I think others have it and I open up.
They have never had it and my heart just gets locked down more.
My heart is locked up so much its scared it wonít find its way out.
It tries and tryís again but is always locked back down.
Locked down so tightly one day it might stop beating.
If my heart stops beating before my true love unlocks it, it will be a lost and lonely heart forever.
Donít let my heart stop beating and left lonely forever.
Take the very key you have in position and unlock my terrified heart.
When my heart is free it will be shaky and scared of any feelings it may want to express.
Just remember you are my true and only love, so my heart will recognize you and hold on.
My heart will hold on so tight that it may scare your heart away.
Please donít shake it, pull it, hurt it, abuse it or take advantage of my heart because it will lock back up and die with out knowing true love and appreciation.
Hurt my heart and not only will my heart leave you, our lives will have nothing to do with each other.
You hold the key to my very heart.
Except how it reacts or hand the key back to me and move on or realize you are whom my heart says you are and open my heart and take what has been yours forever.

Tina Le Roux

~#~

 
Struggle
Mohammad Ali Shaikh

Itís not over, I waited and itís not over.
I want it to be over and itís not over.
When will it be over, is it ever over?
When will it be over? Itís never over.

~#~

BUT NOW YOU ARE GONE
  Vinnie Alarcon
 
When i first saw your face,
I fell in love with you
but now you are gone,
and I don't know what to do,
Whenever I see your picture,
it makes me want to cry
but now your are gone
and I ask God why,
Whenever I think of you
I remember when we touched
but now you are gone
and I miss you so much
Whenever i thought about you
you were the perfect girl for me
but now you are gone
and with you is where I want to be
Whenever I see you again
my dream would have came true
but now you are here
and I will never be without you

~#~

TORN
ANN ROUSE

                                                                        My laughter dwindles into tears, my heart is torn apart.  My feelings crushed my bleeding heart, demolished under the continuous monstrosity of your demeaning words.  What life have i when you degrade me.  Insult my departing soul.  What life have i when you torment me, my fleeting spirit cries.  Why don't you comprehend all love departed destroyed by the crushing roller coaster of your disastrous life.  Hypocrited live better so much better than you or I.                                

~#~

      OCEAN OF LOVE
      By: Ciarra Briseno
 
Love is like an ocean
Flowing like a tide
What lovers share together
And neither dare to hide
Forever it will last
Enchanting those it finds
And when it comes together
It crashes when it binds
As long as there is love
Together we cannot be denied
It will take us unaware
On a special magic ride
We can not make it happen
It will come on it's own will
As natural as you breathe
The emotions we will feel

~#~

FOREVER YOURS
BY GENEVA TINDALL

 

You saw me one day, but did not run.
I miss you when you are gone.
I saw the look in your eyes that night.
I miss you when you are gone.
You love me truly, I don't know why.
I miss you when you are gone.
I love you more, you know not why.
You miss me when I am gone.

~#~

MARCH 13TH
Nick DeSorbo

Chaos indifference
childish journey gift
destination light

~#~ 
                        MY FRIEND TURQUOISE
                       KELLY MARIE BAXTER
                         I have a friend
                         Around the corner
                         Yet miles away
                         I miss her a lot
 
                         She moved a while ago
                         I have a friend
                         She is a true friend
                         I miss her a lot
 
                         New friends become old friends
                         Old friends are lost new friends are gained
                         Around the corner
                         Yet miles away
 
                         She visits from time to time
                         We hang out when we can
                         She is a true friend
                         I miss her a lot
 
                         New friends become old friends
                         Old friends are lost new friends are gained
                         She will remain in my hart
                         Till the day I die                

~#~
      
STUPID, AM I....?
tonette 
 
i was left here, with non of me
i hoped for, the things that's not meant to be
i cried for, everything i know nothing
i laugh for, the one who's crazy that's me...
 
i trusted, and givin all of me
i surrendered and forsaken the things i believe was ougth to be
i loved you, but never loved at all
i believed you but never trusted them all
 
now i raise the flag
and set free the white dove
and pleaded but you never heard
i left and you never cared
 
just what am i supposed to be?
one part of you fling supposed to be?
then what the hell i'm feeling for?
when you didn't loved me after all...

~#~

Its so dark,
All around so much blackness,
Emptiness,
Loneliness,
But I like this feeling.
But I don't like the cover,
Its always there.
I try to lift it,
And it falls.
I claw at it,
But its like thick silk.
When I think its going to lift,
It presses down harder,
It chokes me.
I'm drowning slowly in a pool of black,
No matter how hard I try,
My breath becomes weaker,
My heart becomes slower.
I'm trapped,
I continue to drown,
In my dark pool of me.

Nikki

~#~

APHRODITE'S
Sara Barrett
 
A golden pearl
my shining curse.
And golden curls
so full of lust.
Sparkling pools,
two oceans filled.
A darkness of envy.
Her lips a scarlet
veil.
Beauty so obscene;
never such a glance.
Dancing skin; a cradle
for desire.
Colored cream- her
hands of silk.
Violating the ribbon
of romance.

~#~

ONE WORD
Maribel
 
How is it our lives connected so
you saw in me a dream unlived
a space as yet untouched by love
i can't believe how deep that love runs
did it come from inside of me
or am i just returning it to you
through time and distance our love has grown
at times i wonder how i lived without it
your warmth and tenderness
in a second center me
i felt my heart begin to mend
when you wiped my tears away
with gentle kisses sweet
and when i look into your eyes
i forget every single word except one:
.......LOVE ..............

~#~

What have we done by gleeful friend.
A mansion prepared for kiss and kin.
A holy kiss both now and then. what next, propose a feat for them.
A mountain tall moved by the pen.
A star unleased; an oceans end.
A birth of four or maybe ten.
The greatest work is who began

Bilal C Muhammad

~#~

Pretender
Nora Kate

Stuck in a foreign yet familiar world
I can but pretend to be
Outgoing fun and popular
Anything but me
A mask I wear, a mask to hide
This tear-stained face of mine
When I speak to friends of years
Itís just a well-worn line
When alone, Iím free, I need not act
No one to judge my words
Yet Iím still sad when I voice my thoughts
For they are not really heard
Misunderstood, yet not outcast
I fit, but just not quite
I have the clothes, the friends, the words
It still does not feel right
Caught in something I understand
I scuttle to deceive
And wait, wait for the joyful day
On which I take my leave
It will almost surely be quite hard
To find a place I fit
Yet not as hard as staying here
A memory Iíll soon forget
For all my life, my deepest wish
To be accepted, to belong
And though I try the best I can
It someone feels so wrong
The clothes to wear, the things to say
These things I know quite well
But continuing this phony life
Has become a living hell
Still I go on, attempting to be
Something which Iím not
I shall never tell, though I probably should
Of the battle I fight and have fought
My life will continue, it grinds away
And no one will ever see past
The girl with a smile, my mask so well made
For I know not how long it must last
One day, this I know, my guise will just fall
Disintegrate, collapse from decay
My soul laid wide open for all near to see
But I linger, hidden, till that day.

~#~

DISCARDED JUNK
megz
 
stone walls have fences,
but people are watching.
thank god i'm me,
now no one can see.
 
i'm not a disgrace,
i'm nobody.
i'm not pretty,
i'm nothing.
 
i only break rules,
'cause i can't be bothered.
the only reason i score high
'cause it happens naturally.
 
so really being me doesn't matter,
at least now that i'm a nobody.
i'm not a champion.
i'm dull.
i leech.
i'm you.
i'm everyone,
being me doesn't work anymore.
 
i like to fit in,
for being different.
i love your praise,
for being bad.
 
before i was an alien,
nobody was after me.
before i was an alien,
everyone was problem free.

~#~

THE LAST WATERING HOLE
        --by Thomas M. Catterson
 
A pane of glass
to view from within.
A draft of brew,
a shot of booze;
the ball and chain
unattached to my stool.
My excuse to watch,
slaver, drool.
The conversation was
woeful among fools.
A pane of glass
to view from without.
I see myself;
I pray for a drought.
A pane of glass.
The pain of glass.

~#~

-- My Friendly Star --
John Collin
 

I look upon the heavens and see

A star that's shining just for me.
I ponder of my life so far,
And so, too, does my friendly star.
 
How lonely 'tis to shine so bright
And brilliantly ev'ry night,
But with a billion stars around,
No other friendly star is found.
 
Each star, alone within his place,
Shines only in a tiny space.
And though my friendly star shines bright,
He's barely noticed in the night.
 
So though my star may disappear,
This is not something I should fear.
For star and man alike, it's best,
Perhaps, to end the loneliness.

~#~

KNOWING THE ADDICT
Linda H. Cole
 
Drug addiction, physical infliction
Unnecessary stitches
And no visual witness
To save or not to save?
Who's to blame?
You're afraid... I'm afraid.
The next step to where?
Nobody cared
No one can understand from
Just too much pain to bare
Witness to survival
To life, we're all entitled
Break out of that cycle
No longer being lied to
We all try to come to some type of epiphany
There has to be an enemy
Not able to be released easily
Scrambling inside to find something to believe
Don't know where they've been
The way out is within

~#~

  Death comes
  But once in a lifetime;
  Rekindled are the ever glowing
  Embers of life,
  As you are slowly forgotten.
  To die is to lose nothing,
  But to gain
  Everything.

LinZ 

~#~

Love
Kimberly Sadlier

Love so strong
that no one could replace it
 
Love so deep
that no ocean could overcome it
 
Love so incredible
that it'd be wanted by everyone
 
Love so intense
that no affair could beat it
 
We long for such love as this
It may seem like a fairy tale
But it can be found
You just have to search for it.........

~#~

THE BLACK ROSE
Holly Helton
 
The black rose.
A special, misunderstood,
Wrongly classified, gift.
 
Dark and mysterious
The black rose sits.
Alone and unique
Surrounded by
Crimson roses the
The Black rose stands out
 
Different and strange
To onlookers the
The Black rose is alone.
Beautiful and rewarding
The black rose is frightened.
 
Unknown and giving,
The black rose is
Not the only one.
Just as the black rose,
Love too is dark, mysterious,
And rewarding.
 
For love is a power
So strong that only
One with a pure heart
Can share it.
 
That is why love
Is feared so.
 
Love is
A special, misunderstood,
Wrongly classified, gift.

~#~

LOVE HER WHEN HER MIND GROWS.
ISAAC K. AMPEM-DAAKO

 

Hey young woman, daughter of vanity.
Her hairs and hue, a hare
Hasty. Hate her in her hey-days
Though dainty: inflicts pain and in her
No pangs; runs from arm to arm
Conscious of her forget-me-not that blossoms
Blooms bounteously, a bouquet but a bogey
Wastes her energies on her appearance
She shall be blandished and hoaxed
Picked for domestic decoration
Treated like an object, discarded when disused.
Oh yes, the half moon is beauteous
But the full moon glows with grandeur
She shines, brightens in the midst of stars
In a darkly night when the sun is no more
So is the flower that grows to maturity
Her seeds rejuvenate her youthful hue
When the dew sits in the early morn.

~#~

My Mystery
Jaclyn Peter
they took my fate
they put it in a headlock and
they sealed my fate
somewhere inside the world
in which they live
because i failed
they constantly ignore me and
they told me i lost my mind but
i believe i rule the world
I'm singing out my revolution song
like nothing else matters
and you can pitch your gold against my soul
but i bet you get shattered
and there's a million houses in my heart
it wont be long
it wont be long
till i solve my mystery

~#~

WHEN DARKNESS FALLS
A.C. CHAMBERS
 
As the sun goes down, I stare at the wall
Trapped in an invisible cell
As the last ray of light disappears, I fall
Pretending everything is well
 
As the door opens, I stay still
Hoping the intruder will go away
As light trickles into the darkness, I keep my iron will
Praying this can wait until another day
 
As a hand touches my shoulder, I realize I am not ready to deal
Denial has become my best friend
As silence endures, nothing seems real
Fear is fighting this battle to the bitter end
 
I soon come to the realization that there is no longer anywhere to hide
Whether I want to admit it or not, there is no longer an invisible line
I now have to change to the other side
My secret world is no longer mine
 
Now as darkness falls, I step outside into the night
Embracing the chilly air
When darkness falls, I keep my goals in sight
Without a single care

~#~

Free
Tasha Miller

When the river finds the sea
then you'll know that I'll be free
Free from pain that reaches the sky
that's in my heart until I die
Dying of a broken heart
after you took it and ripped it apart
Apart from my chest is where it is
because it's me you never miss
Missing you everyday
because I never got to say
I know the feeling of true love
that was sent from up above
Shining down on you and me
because I know we're meant to be
And when I'm free of all this pain
I will have your love to gain

~#~

 

WANT TO DIE
Raghab Nepal

 

World is making me crazy
I've started getting dizzy
I can see the darkness in my eyes.
World has turned for me elegiac
I've stopped being energetic
Let me the flame of life
I want to die
 
I need no heaven, I can share hell.
I've lived very long, let me bid farewell
Life is just a game and I'm a player,
I've played my part I can't play it
forever.
Please don't push me off,
I wouldn't stay in this world,
Because of this world's hate,
I'm regretting my birth.
Hope the day will surely come
When I find myself lying in my tomb.
I want to die..

~#~

 

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