OPEN MIC ENCORE II
JUNE, 2003

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OPEN MIC ENCORE I
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IN QUEST OF VALHALLA
                                  by
                            Ronald K. Burke
                     Both dreamed of owning a Jag ew R
                     as metal unit clacked on rails
                     Both dreamed of white picket fences
                     at each Station of the Cross
                     Both dreamed of life in the burbs
                     as carriage ceased to motate
                     Both departed in quest of Valhalla.

                     Both dreamed of Ottomatt's multi-courses
                     while he supported her she shinnied
                     upside of detritus depository
                     relishing the gastronomic orgy both
                     quaffed thunderbird leavings delight
                     fantasizing dancing nightclubs wads
                     of green mazuma moolah money fame
                     Both took turns dozing in trunk
                     of wrecked Jag ew R.
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You turned my world upside down
accidentally.
I turned my world upside down
without shame.
And now it's time to return to regular life.
As soon as I figure out
how to make upside down right-side-up when it feels anything
but right.
When all I feel is down

Empty Ness

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FAILED
Patrick Thomas Evans

Can't understand.
Feel unwanted.
I know the truth, I think.
But truth is hollow in the face of the voices within.
They scream at me.
Not wanted.
Not needed.
Too much.
Failure.
Have I failed then?
Don't know.
My mind says no.
My heart says yes.
I want to do something.
Anything.
It will make it worse.
This doing nothing kills me.
Want an enemy to fight.
Want some way to help.
Can not.
Gave my word, my oath.
Failed.

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Problems scratching and screaming to come out of my head. Explosions, implosions. Releasing anger into the nite. Breathe my life free the pain from within my heart. Die from the love of an insane child. Bleed from the hands of a torn soul.
 
Blood rushing, thrusting screaming through my veins. Anger, hate, betrayed. Female's anger from hormones of other types. Hate the smell of perfume in the middle of the nite. Need to feel safe but can't be touched without being burned. Get away from the light only to be thrown back into dark. HATING all that comes through my mind. Wanting to reach out and hurt but cannot find the one whom I hate SO MUCH. Need to know how to be free without becoming evil. In which I have already become.
 
Emotions needing to be expressed but cannot be of the views of others. No one understands and I don't care. Who wants to be completely known anyways. Hating not knowing the emotions of the other loved one. Needing to hear their voice but when heard only enrages me even more. Need to see, feel, know for myself. Not sick but who could make me better anyways? Who understands, who wants to. Hating being ALONE but can't be near anyone anyways. Please don't touch, don't breathe. Can't breathe, cant be. Need help no one here. WHO CARES? NoONe.

Jessica Sweet

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IN THE MIRROR
Lawrence Cardinal
What do I see when I look in the mirror?
I see a boy who needs to open his eyes so things are clearer.
I see a boy who so far wasted his life.
A boy who's cut up his soul from playing with the double edged knife.
I see a dumb kid with low self-esteem.
A scared little boy who wishes he was still fifteen.
I see a boy who's lost and confused.
He let his heart go and it got abused.
I see a boy who is on his last nerve.
But it's nothing he didn't deserve.
I see a boy who did some back stabbing.
A lazy little shit who's ass is dragging.
So I ask the boy "How do you plan to leave this hole?"
Without a ladder, rope, or a pole.
We'll he's gonna dig his hands in one at a time.
Pick his ass up and start to climb.
Because now when I look in the mirror.
I see a man with is eyes open so now things are clearer.
I see a man who wants something from this life.
who's done with the drugs the double edged knife.
He's still lost but who isn't confused.
Their is still a smile on his face from being abused.
I see a man who's grabbing a hold of his last nerve.
Because he knows his life is on a up curve.
I see a man who learned from the stabbing.
And he's picking up his ass that was dragging.
Will he learn from wearing the cast?
To prepare for the future by learning from the past.

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     I WISH I COULD EXPLAIN
I WISH YOU KNEW WHAT IS INSIDE MY HEAD
SO MUCH PAIN SO MUCH PAIN
WHY DO THINGS GO SO WRONG?
NOTHING IS RIGHT...I AM NOT HAPPY
I AM IN PAIN...RAGE AND DESPAIR
NO HAPPINESS HERE ONLY WAR
NO HAPPINESS HERE ONLY WAR
IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE MY WORLD
BUT IT IS NOT...WHAT A LIE
THEY TELL SO MANY LIES
THEY TELL SO MANY LIES
I AM AFRAID TO FIGHT MY ENEMIES
I AM AFRAID OF THEM
AND...GOD HELP ME

JASON  BLUE 

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I wake up in the morning
Stretch my arms and open my eyes.
Flex my toes and stretch my legs,
Then look out the window at the skies
 
Then I look at my feet,
And see Mr. Dangly,
all pink and handy.
Naughty Mr. Dangly. 
Now he's all stiff and randy.

Kali Megdan

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Is it not but time, within the day
That shineís in this love,
That comes our way.
  Not an hour or minute spent in fear,
Within your arms making it so clear.
 Sent from haven within a cry,
This long heart that never asks why.
   Within these tears that call thy name,
 Knowing this love that makes us change.
 Dreams of passion that set us free
   Within a love so tenderly,
 Flowers that bloomed   within these nights,
   The sound of love that feels so right.
 As a  Passionate  heart ,
that  comes to be
   Within my cry and my pleaÖ

 By Clifford Wayne Duncan

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BEAUTIFUL
C.J.H.
                       A GIRL WHO WAS BEAUTIFUL
                         BUT DOUBTED HERSELF
                      THOUGHT SHE WAS UGLIER
                        THAN EVERYONE ELSE
                 SHE FELT TRAPPED IN SOMEONE ELSE'S SKIN
                        AND WANTED TO BE WANTED
                     BUT THE PAIN WOULDN'T GO AWAY
                         SHE KEPT BEING TAUNTED
                   ALL HER LIFE, SHE GAVE PPL HER HEART
                       BUT NO ONE SEEMED TO CARE
                     SHE TRIED TO MAKE A NEW START
                       A GIRL WHO WAS BEAUTIFUL
                         BUT DOUBTED HERSELF
                        WILL REALIZE ONE DAY
                          BEFORE ITS TOO LATE
                    THAT NO ONE WILL HAVE TO TELL HER
                         SHE REALLY IS BEAUTIFUL
    
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SEE MY INSIDES
BY BLAKE LEWIS
 
Do you see what I conceal?
Should I Reveal?
What I hide...
Or keep it all inside!!
 
Will you still be my friend?
If I expose myself
Or just lie to me...
Until I die!!
 
I've changed since then
When we became friends
Issues killed me inside
Demons consumed my mind
They clutter all around
 
There is no return
Then my skin starts to burn!!
Damn it!! I gained another demon!!
I'm turning into a haven!!
Don't look at my wrist...
It'll just make me pissed!!
 
Just hang me!! Watch awhile...
Let me see you smile!!
Hate me...rape me!!
I cry out to God!!
Seeking on his decision...
 But in the harsh reality
Only created my own prison!!
 
I've exposed to much!!
Torture soul!!
Building more holes!!
Just another mind!!
Ready to hide!!
 
Now do you see what I conceal?
Take some time and realize
What I keep whats in my mind!!
As you watch me die inside!!
I got so much to say...
But not enough days!!
 
Let me ask again...
I revealed what I conceal
Are you still my friend...
Or just another lie!!
You see my soul that is gray...
Are you going to turn away!!

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Listen to me,
This is a voice from tar,
Maybe you ask yourself,
Tar has voice?
Yes, tar says yes,
Due, when you look toward tar, you can see a light
yes, this is leader light
It causes, you say, this is light of the dark
When dark has mean
I know, and I want to tell you,
The time of grasping the mean of dark, is, when you live at tar
In fact, when you grasping the mean of dismal
When you lose your love,
yes, this is the time of dismal, and this is the time of tar
BUT,
As I said,
There is a leader light in dark,
That, it causes, you say : This is light of the dark
Believe me,
You will win !

Mohammad Hossein Dalvand

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I Thought I saw an angel
Renee C. Budz
I thought I saw an angel last night...
She stood by my bed and smiled down at me
Her eyes glistened like still waters
And her gown rippled in winds that weren't there.
 
She smiled a smile so tender it warmed me inside
Her surly blonde hair surrounding her face
Then resting along her shoulders like the calm waves of an ocean
The cheeks of her face sparkled like dew drops
Being warmed by the morning sun.
 
I thought I saw an angel last night...
She kissed my forehead so tenderly
And chanted such beautiful words
That each one brought tears to my eyes
Soothing my soul in a way I had never known before.
 
She told me a story of long ago...
About a woman who had entered my life at a time
When I did not know what a person was or where they came from
Yet strangely enough, I sensed I knew this woman.
 
I thought I saw an angel last night...
And as she told me my story I wept
Not tears of sadness but tears filled
With everlasting joy and strength
Somehow I knew this woman was still by my side.
 
Holding my hand...wiping my tears
Making me giggle over something
I later on laughed and laughed about
With my husband...my friends...anyone.
 
I saw an angel last night; I just know I did
And she told me all about my mother
About her every kindness and all the warmth she felt
And how she still feels this way in heaven.
 
With each day that dawns a new feather grows
Her halo glowing brighter than the moon
And before the angel left me she said...
Your mom will see you soon.

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A Little Softer
 Lauren Duke
Life could be could be so much easier. It could be a little softer. It could help out a little more. But who am I ? I'm only one, nothing but a speck that takes up a small fragment of time.

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HOPELESS
Matt M. 
There is no more rebellion,
everything is a fad.
Your clothes, my hair, our culture is sad.
Dictated by forces flowing out of box,
Selling personality for phrases,
things like, "this rocks."
And the hope that we have
becomes the hope that we had.
And the energy that kept us,
will soon quickly have left us.
In a rush to grow up, and once there grow back down.
With the scars and memories of hard lives and bad towns
Leaving frowns not smiles, and tears not hope.
We take a deep gulp of apathy and pray not choke.
But we will look back and try to rationalize the meaning,
Except there is none, we lost it, and with it, our breathing.

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DEPRESSION
RHIAN SANTINI

 

     THERE IS SO MUCH WITH MY LIFE I WOULD LIKE TO DO,BUT EVERY TIME I TRY TO STEP UP,I CANT MOVE.
     I'M DEEP IN A HOLE AND I CAN'T GET UP.I TRY SO HARD AND IT'S JUST TO TOUGH.
     PEOPLE TALK TO ME EVERYDAY,BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE A GHOST.
      NOBODY EVER TALKS WHEN I NEED THEM THE MOST.
     I TRY TO STAY FOCUST,AND KEEP MYSELF ON TRACK.I MUCH LONGER CAN I BEAR THIS HEART ATTACK?
     EVERYWHERE I LOOK I SEE NOTHING BUT GLOOM.I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF SITTING ALONE IN A DARK ROOM.
     PEOPLE SAY THEY HERE ME,BUT THEY REALY DON'T LISTEN.
     THEY ACT LIKE THEY KNOW, BUT IT'S THE MAIN POINT THEIR MISSING.
      ALL I SEE IS DARKNESS,AND I'M ALL ALONE.bUT ALL THE LIGHTS ARE ON,AND EVERYONE IS HOME.
     THE KNIFE'S CUTTING ME DEEPER,AND I CAN'T PULL IT OUT.
     NOONE HEARS ME, EVEN WHEN I SCREAM AND SHOUT.
      I'M STANDING CLOSE TO THE EDGE,AND I FEEL THE END IS NEAR.
      HOW CAN I GO ON,LIVING MY LIFE IN FEAR.
      WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE THIS PAIN GO AWAY?
      I TRY SO HARD TO FIGHT IT OFF EVERYDAY.
      I KNOW IT'S NOT THE ANSWER TO TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT.
      NOT EVERYONE IS STRONG ENOUGH TO JUST STICK IT OUT.
 
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I don't know what happen that day
The day everything just slipped away
I didn't think about it, I didn't think it would hurt
Just one or two simple slits as I fall to the floor
I let the tears slip from my cheek, I didn't care anymore
Pain unraveled my soul with no way out
I knew it would come to this, I had no doubt
I believe so many people damned me to hell
I never thought of how you'd feel after I fell
The blood poured from my wounded wrists
I thanked everyone who could have prevented this
With my last few breaths I murmured your name
And how you thought all this was a game
Promise me you will not lie
When you tell them why it had to come to this, why I had to die

Jessica Potter 

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Gaze at the ring when you feel desolate,
A heart of blithe it will create.
Think of the ring as it was me,
Observing you study to get a first class degree.
Enjoy your life at the States don't bother about me,
I'll take care of myself and your family.
Your friends in Malaysia wish you the best of luck,
It's just a moral support so you won't get stuck.
I engrossedly sing Frank Sinatra's My Way,
That I almost forgot today's your birthday.
So best wishes to the birthday girl,
As she's the one who rocks my world.
Finally reaching the age of nineteen,
Will you take my hand and be my queen?
It's not a joke as I love you so much,
I really hunger your sweet gentle touch.
It took me six years to see you in the real,
So another four is no big deal.
I'll anxiously wait for that day to come,
When I kneel down before you but somehow act so numb.
As I'm about to make the biggest decision in my life,
That is to take you as my everlasting wife.
But until this dream comes true,
I'll just sit back waiting and be loyal to you.....

Farid Salleh

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The Farewell Night
Srinivas Sampath

On a night illumined by memory's foray,
When outward smiles and inward tears conducted the fray
We were consecrated by melancholic moon's shower,
To whiten our hearts and groom'em with power
To conjure up bright memories from precincts deep
to let our minds nostalgia reap.
As tutors too teetered from their silence's peak
To energise our tears with their sagacity's streak
The brothers and sisters in our milieu
Travailed to cheer us from their tears' mere-
From their sincere, smiling affectation we sought solace;
In their solicitous affection we were beset by palace!
In agonised ecstasy our memory's pearl was wrought;
In ecstatic agony smiles became a drought;
As the safari of perception strol'd strongly
On roses of agony an' thorns of glee!
And when tears and smiles breathed each other farewell,
From memory's aesthetic and abstruse well,
The farewell became a fare to augur well
As emotions' lids enveloped the ecstatic white melancholy!

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WHAT A BLESSED DAY!
Barbara Zinnamon
HOW OUR GOD GRANTS US A BEAUTIFUL AND BLESSED DAY UPON THE EARTH EACH DAY.
THE TREES CANNOT RESPOND, NEITHER CAN THE GRASS, NOR THE DIRT SAY THANK YOU
GOD, BUT HOW ALL OF GOD'S PEOPLE THAT HAVE A GOOD AND PERFECT SPEECH, OPEN
OUR MOUTHS AND SAY, "OH MY LORD, THANK YOU FOR THIS IS YOUR DAY, THANK YOU
LORD, "WHAT A BLESSED DAY."

HEAR THE CHIRPING BIRDS, THE SOUND OF THE WIND, THE CARS DRIVE BY AGAIN AND
AGAIN. EVERY DAY JEHOVAH JIREH IS TO BE HIGHLY PRAISED, FOR ALL OF HIS
CREATION IS MADE IN A VERY SPECIAL WAY. KNEELING BEFORE HIS PRESENCE IS A
SWEET AND HUMBLE WAY, KNOWING THAT THIS IS PERFECT FOR A BLESSED AND WHAT
A BLESSED DAY.
 
CRIES TO OUR MAJESTY AND ACKNOWLEDGE WHO WE ARE BECAUSE OF HIM IS A THOUGHT
FOR THE DAY FOR YOUR PASTOR TO KNOW. HE LOVES OUR GOD, YOU LOVE OUR GOD, WE
LOVE OUR GOD OH WHAT A BLESSED DAY. WE ARE NEARING TO THE END FOR THE TIME
IS ALMOST AT HAND. HEAR OUR FATHER'S HEAVENLY VOICE SAYING MY CHILD YOU ARE
IN MY HANDS. I HEARD HIM, I HEARD HIM, I HEARD HIM SPEAK TO ME. MY GOD, MY
HEAVENLY FATHER YOU ARE A BLESSING TO ME. OH! WHAT A BLESSED DAY!
I GRANT YOU ALL A VERY GOOD DAY AND BE READY TO MEET OUR GOD OH THIS IS
GOING TO BE A BLESSING FOR YOU. REMEMBER, WHAT A BLESSED DAY!

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Beauty is not perfect.
but if thy must know beauty,
thy must know life.
And if thy must know life then thy must
know love.
 
longing,yearning,
thou walks through the forest.
only now does thee know,
thee must not be seen.
 
Hiding in shadows you shall find thee,
watching waiting.
The silence only makes thy's loneliness
worse.
Pain prolonged does thou feel,
banished for all eternity is thee.
 
To look upon thy life,
to gaze upon thy beauty,
is to love most certainly.
But to touch thy life,
to feel thy beauty.
is to love most completely.
 
Awakened is thee,
because of this touch.
Never to know the yearning of thee.
For thy's longing is long forgotten the moment
thee takes the hand of one's heart

faces

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REFLECTION
Carol Kellison
 
I sit in the shadow of the person I once was;
Loving, full of life.
Now an empty shell, withered
broken, dispirited.
A rueful, insensate fiend;
insecure of my own self worth.
Starving for affection;
terrified to take the chance.
I stare into the mirror, hoping
to find a glimpse
of the person I left behind.
I stare into the mirror
I see the image I've become
I see a perfect reflection
of you.

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Listen.
by Taylor Q

I've worked with these dirty little rodents for years and years
every day the stories
every day
I've worked with these dirty little rodents
I've listened to the stories
I have listened
silence
I've worked with these beautiful little children for years and years
every day the stories
every day
I've worked with these beautiful children
I've listened to the stories
I have listened
listen
shhhhhh
listen

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Trainīs stations:
Catalina
I  travel on my own
I  share love with stars
but, their  shadows canīt sing like birds and dreams.
 
Trains stations blow inside my soul
 while, I believe in fantasy and gold.
 
Roads feel strong
when trains run over the world
then, Children and forms
draw mountains and snow.
 
Trains stations blow inside my soul
just like words dance at home.
 
Trains stations find me alone
I follow them in the name of God.

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Warmth
by Katherine Johnson
 
If I close my eyes,
The pain will go away and be replaced
By memory and fantasy.
I take a breath,
And the fragrant scent of summer fills my heart.
I canít feel the cold anymore,
In my mind the hot sun bathes me.
It burns away all my pain
And evaporates my anger.
The chill of winter disappears,
And is replaced by the glorious warmth of summer.
I donít feel the cold anymore.

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Will i get stronger
will i remember the history
how much longer
Till i get victory
 
how much more time
do i have to spend
trying to flee
will people see a sign
in me or ignore
and push me threw that door
not everything is fine
will it heal or ever go away
will my secrets be revealed
or locked up always sealed
 
people wondering why
when i'm gone hope all unfolds
that's when i leave
please don't cry
but...
will my life story be told
or is it just anther suicide

lisa goodness

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WHEN THE GRASS IS  NO LONGER GREEN
megan h

The trash decorates the street and sidewalks with steel gates and wire fences. that intimidate distracting clean vision. on even sunny days. clanging to protect tenants from bad. outside influences while locking in the  good. the ones who try to help us. little girls pick up babies instead of lilies and daisies. while there boyfriends pick up rocks, bats, knives, sticks and guns. suddenly do they pick up their babies. maybe their babies are to heavy to hold like jobs.


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PRIDE
by William Jones
 
I have pride,
Iím filled with pride.
My pride and me.
The times me and my wife would fight and she locked her self away I had pride,
And stayed away from her,
When I should have hugged her.
When the love faded from her eyes I had pride and said nothing.
When I found out that she loved another man I had pride,
I gave her a hard time about it when I should have showed my love for her but I had pride.
When I found out she was pregnant by another man I had pride and left.
I lost my family but I have pride.
I lost a lifetime with my daughter but I have pride.
I lost my mind! But have pride but I have pride!
So now it is just my pride and me alone in a room.

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RAIN
Andria Craig
 
This rain is beating on my head,
Dripping on my conscience,
I feel the rain becoming thicker,
Building a deepening river.
 
I can feel it soaking in,
I am soaked in cold rain,
With a dark cloud over my head,
I long for the warmth of truth. 
 
The stinging rain causes biting pain,
My aching soul bleeding out, 
There is no shelter from this rain,
Truth is the only way out.

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I am the one that sees the rain
Coming down again today
Another day I've left behind
 
The sky gray with mist
And clouds so high the sun won't shine upon my face
Night's gone by again
 
Have you ever awoke, and not known where you're heading
No place to settle down, no one to call your own
I've seen shadows of yesterday pass
But I'm never too close to touch
 
I walk in the calm after a storm
Searching for rainbow endings of joy
But only finding beginning's as the colors fade away
 
I look to the sky in search of answers
Finding nothing
As the wind flies through my hair
Nature speaks to me, but has nothing to say
 
I kneel down and pray, not understanding
As darkness fills all space, and nothing really matters
I feel the rain falling down my face
As I slowly melt away

Eric Lenhardt 

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Journey
BML 
Just below my eyelid, a lonely tear drop lies
I try to dry it with my mind, but nature holds the prize
It travels down my chin, leaves a trail for all to see
I try again to dry it, but it keeps roaming free.
It moves on past my lips, it passes my collar by
I wipe it off with all my might, but somehow it won't die
Beneath my shirt it's creeping, and finally comes to rest
It makes itself right at home, in the center of my chest
I reach down quickly for it, in hopes that I can save
A piece of what I'm hoping , is a tiny salty grave
But there it's pulse still beating, there's no more tear to see
It died and went to heaven, but now it's part of me
I start to see no matter, what I try to do
For in that lonely tear drop lives, The memory of you

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Standing on the Outside
Rhonda L Jackson
Standing on the outside peering
Into the open window
Actually leering
And wanting/knowing that I should go
Inside and bask in the warmth
Of the hearth's glow
But I'm not welcomed in or am I?
I have felt so bad, so low, so long
My heart has been so cold, so long, so long
I had better not go
Inside to bask in the warmth of the hearth's glow
It's odd but I know that once I had been
Invited in but somehow I still felt I did not
Belong but I did or some thought so
But I lost my way so so long ago
So now I peer/leer into this open window
And wonder should I go in and warm myself and bask in the hearth's glow
Or should I just go   

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So sad the day
So sad the day when only one of us is here
So sad to call and receive no answer
To search among the emotions of a mind
 
To bend and pick up happy fragments with which to paint an English summer day
So particular that blue sky of England so special as are you this day
Will there be a place inside that has been shared by both of us?
A fortress defence against the catastrophe of loneliness
 
Where sadness is banished and the prism shows its colours.
Show me if you can a road that will take us from today Ďtil then
A road that will leave one of us to stand alone yet look upon tomorrow as today
without sorrow in the way.
 
Will a heart of unquenched fires burn and wait for tears
that journey crevices of fear
while in their eyes people show all their discomfort
I am so sorry, weíre so sorry; at least it was quick, 
 
To be prodded and provoked at every turn
By sight of things that were of your hand
Each time to replay the memory for good or bad.
Iím not sure that; I can stand.

PHOENIX    

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weather
carrie shoemaker 
raindrop
watch it plop
 
cloud
it doesn't make a sound
 
sun
isn't it fun

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"Goodbye"
Wendy
To breathe your breath would that be fair
I gasp for dreams, to carry me there
I danced the dance as daughters do
to see them shredded, by deaths shrew
 
I watched her grow,unholy steed
and thread her web to plant her seed
was not enough to steal the sparkle from your eyes
as you fought not knowing fate to be your demise
 
I miss you more than dawns do light
I saw the sadness of the warriors flight
I held the hand of death for you
But no longer could I trap the shrew
 
And as the bitter winter ends
I think of all the springs, that bring amends
I kissed your forehead, cold as stone
And now I walk into the sunrise, alone.

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                                IN THE NIGHT
                              -Brian Messerly-

           If I could pluck a brilliant Star, I'd pin it in your hair
        I know the beauty of it's light, would make you look quite fair
          If I could hold the Crescent Moon, 'till we sat upon the edge
        I'd tell the Moon, "just sail away", while my True Love I pledge
 
        We'd travel down the Milky Way, and pass the Dipper too
        Venus and Mars would wink at us, and say "How do you do"
        Then the Clouds would drift on by and gently send a spray
            Of tiny little rain drops that dance along the way
 
          The the Moon would slowly tip and gently let us down
         Before we could say a word, out feet would touch the ground
           The Sea would softly roll, and gently caress the shore
         We would stand upon the bluff, and whisper our love ever more
 
          All through our life we'll cherish, the Heavenly Canopy
          The Moon, the Stars and Clouds, also The Milky Way
        Oh! What beauty we can behold, if we only take time to see
           The Handiwork of God, that's given to us so free  

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Deep Inside*
Jeannie J. Spencer 
Tonight a silent tear ran down my cheek
You tried to help but the pain was far to deep
Look into my eyes filled with pain
All this pain that will never be able to be explained
It hurts so bad
You will never understand
You try and you try
But you can never break through
Don't feel bad everyone tries
But it'll always stay deep inside
You walked away and gave me a kiss
If you only knew how bad I wanted
Just to grab you and never leet you go,
To tell you why I cry,
Why I hold all these feelings deep inside!

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My Tears
emily cooper 
My tears come from the past to haunt me, they like to be remembered as a struggle once gone through.
My tears are full of hatred, love, blessings, and surrender.
My tears are sneaky and embarrassing, they flow heavy and are accompanied by red eyes and various hand movements.
 
I cry because I can't figure out what is wrong,I cry because I have been done wrong, I cry because I onced loved you,I cry because I have made it through, I cry because I am blessed and I know it, and crying is a way to show it.
My tears are not meant to hurt me they are here to heal me;
once they are gone my eyes will be open and clearly in thought I will see all that was meant to be.

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Bullet
- Greg
A bullet that is piercing through my heart
that was shot with the intentions of tearing us apart
and bullet that was stunning
swift and cunning
that is able to take my whole
body heart and soul
and tear them all in pieces so small
that it caused me to fall
and hit so hard that it felt
as like my heart just melt
into nothing more then a pile os ashís
bruises and gashís
 
When the bullet hit
and left me with no choice but to submit
I was reduced to the lowest I have been
and felt as if within
myself I had nothing left to live for
and didnít want to be here no more
because without the person who with the finger
who pulled the trigger
there is no reason to live on no more
and I wish I could go to sleep for
ever and ever
for there will never
be enough time given to me to heal
from all this pain that I feel
 
If this one little bullet could do all this to me
then how cold I ever think of going on to see
what the future holds
and all that still remains untold.
For in order to live you must have a breathe
for without that all that remains is death
and if I can no longer breath
then how can I ever expect this bullet to leave.
For its all I ever knew to be true
for I have and still do love you.
 
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HOW FRIENDS LET YOU DOWN
                               Jessica Trevino
                      You may think you have a true friend until you find out other wise they turn there back on you in a flash the only way to tell if your friends are true is to do something and see if they stick by you my friends i once had just threw me away in a flash no hurt in there eyes like it was as easy as eating a pie they don't know how much i hurt or how much i wonder why one little mistake and they said good-bye

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 TEARS
cathy friend
                    When I'm all alone the pain wants out.
                    Don't like to be alone.
                    So much to feel, so much to remember.
                    So many people but still alone.
                    Feel tears on my face and it is here, the pain, shows
                    my fears.
                    Alone means silence.
                    Alone means solitude.
                    Silence hurts my ears.
                    Silence kills my soul.
                    The darkness is so quiet. I don't want to feel pain
                    when i'm alone.
         

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Guy
Dorjuan R. Alberts
 There once was a boy named Guy
 Who'd lie and lie and lie
 once he got caught
 had to pay the cost
 the penalty was to die

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i figure now, i should shut-up
  go back to my room and cry again
scream in agony of the confusion again
  be ignored, and pushed away in fear again
 
maybe my stupid niave feelings will leave me
  maybe i'll stop bothering you
maybe i'll stop asking dumb questions
  maybe i'll hit reality and stop dreaming my idiot dreams
 
for that's all i am to most, maybe you too,
   right? stupid and niave me?
asking idiot questions, dreaming stupid things
   not able to bear reality above all things
 
sometimes, i hope you hate me
  because i'm not worth any of your time
sometimes, i hope you love me
  because i need every moment of time you can spare for me
 
i'll leave you alone now.........
  i'll go and cry in my bed
and watch my tears fall
  thinking of you the whole time
 
Leah Santan

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"LACTATING PLATYPUS"
by Rommial Butler
 
...a disgusting state of affairs. I never thought that it could come to this, this massacre of the collective equilibrium. i slip down into a pit of despair, so complete that it consumes me as i simultaneously consume it. it feeds me. we grow together.i transform it into new emotions, fresh pleasures, delicious pains, unfettered creative flow. i am now truly alive, as never before. and riding this violent wave i think of pecos bill, riding the tornado, and i know it could have happened, anything could happen. if we just stop running away from our fear, if we just straddle that motherfucker and cuss in its ear, if we are just, just, just to our true path and those of others, if the branches are allowed to grow, if the realm of possibility is realized, the door is
open.
will you step through with me?

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Autumn is here
Trees are going bare
Colours of gold
Slowly unfold
Everywhere,
Leaves are falling
As nature comes a calling.
Birds are flocking
Atop balding branches
In their usual stances,
Squawking
All around
Rustling sound
As leaves on air glide
Upon the ground
They slide
Kind Mr Wind
Leads merry dances
Here and there
Wherever it goes.

 

Cecilia Leong

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I see you standing there.
Soft lines make up your delicately structured face
And messy brown hair shadows your amazing eyes.
Not to tall, not to short, just right.
I feel trapped within your presence.
Unable to move, just stare in awe.
Then I see a smile light up on your face.
You are looking my way
And you smile
Is the smile for me?
I feel I am soaring,
Then I see her.
You were smiling for her
I feel my soaring wings are broken,
And I begin to fall.
I fall deeper and deeper into despair and self-pity.
Canít you see me falling?
I thought I had felt the worst just by not being with you.
Now she stands in the way
And the pain is greater than I ever thought possible.

Sarah

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To reach for something and grasp it,
is much easier than letting it go.
My heart filled up with happiness,
and began to overflow.
 
Even though I'm well aware now,
that the end is coming quick.
All I do is hold on tighter,
Trying hard not to lose my grip.
 
The clock continues counting down,
it seems we're nearly there.
Did it have to hurt this deep to learn,
life really isn't fair?
 
All the time I held on to it,
safely in my hand.
I was breaking a promise to myself,
I grew more attached than I planned.
 
We're getting even closer now,
despite all efforts to hold on.
Before I get a chance to catch it,
what once filled my hand is gone.
 
Emptiness is now consuming me,
because I let it all slip away.
I hope that you'll come back to me,
but only when you're ready to stay.

Jessica Dru Rose

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Fading 
Kelleen Shadow
 
Your almost invisible now  I can almost forget every last freckle on your face. The last image I have of you, your sitting behind me at a stoplight. Sun visor over your eyes, protecting yourself so much like a disguise.
Why are you scared? Why do you hide? You were the one who left me long ago.
 
But you are finally starting to Fade
You are finally starting to Fade
 
A well loved part of myself died. But be frightened no longer it's not you who instigates my actions anymore. Every day I live with me just as myself and I deal with being all alone. I'm alright I'm just fine

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SMILE FOR THE WORLD
Jessica Matschke
 
I smile for the world
and tell them Iím okay
no one sees the pain I hide
each and everyday
 
I smile for the world
take everything in stride
no one sees the tears I cry
each and every night
 
I smile for the world
laugh away the pain
inside I cry
on my eyes a stain
 
I smile for the world
never let them know
how much it hurts inside
every time I cry
 
I smile for the world
They'll never see my tears
I'll hide all my fears
I'll be strong for them
be the one they trust
and never let them know

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MY OUT, MY MASK
By Charrelle
 
Everyday I walk
I walk with my head held high
    But there's one catch
                         there are tears in my eyes
Everyday I smile
I smile with a smirk on my face
    But there's just one catch
                              there are tears in my eyes
Everyday I am here
I am here just beaming at the world
    But there's just on catch
                             there are tears in my eyes
People ask me if I'm ok
I'M FINE!!-- I say
People ask me if I need their help
I'M FINE!!-- I say
People ask me if I am sure of myself
I'M FINE!!-- I say, I'm fine

But this word "fine" is just my out
 It's just my mask to defend myself against the world
So b/c I'm in denial my answer will forever be: I'M FINE!!, I am so fine.

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Pretending
By: Josh McDowell
in my messy room is where my life has been, i gather my thoughts, and i pretend, that i  have a different life, somewhere far away, where everything is good, and nothing is grey, nobody messes with me and nobody cares, about how i act or what i wear, ive got a job and a place of my own, ive got a car, and everything is shown, i dont hide my feelings or act like a hermit, i go out everynight, i could get used to it, id love it if it were like that, but it wont be if i dont get my life on track, i gotta stay strong and do things right, not sit up and wonder everynight, about where im goin and where ive been, i just sit in my room, i sit and pretend....lonley nights are what i know, these are the times that i grow, both mentally and as a man, my thoughts are scattered, through the land, in places i havent been and places i'll go, ive gotta get there someday, so i can grow, i need to get out of this cruddy place, go somewhere else where noone knows my face, start a new life and !
 make new friends, i love the ones ive got, but i still pretend, i make believe that im the greatest, nobody can touch me, cuz im the latest, the hottest item, the best of trends, but, i still have a lack of friends, my people skills are horrible, to this very day, my perfect world, is now turning grey, everything is starting all over again, going back to the way it was before id pretend, nothing but bad, never doing right, what is my problem? why do i fight? why wont this cycle of heartache end? i guess i'll just have to sit and pretend

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~A Darker Marsh~~~~~
Jenna L.

It keeps pulling me deeper with each day
I try, I kick, I pull but it wont let me away
I've been screaming for hours, no one can hear the sound
When I run away they don't even Realize i am not around.
It's eating away my soul till it swallows me whole.
Why do I fell this way i will neverunderstand
I just want some to hold my soft hand.
I cry everynight, I want someon to decease my fright.
All my thoughts deplimish and every weak Im on a punish
I wanna live life But my grips too tight on this shinny knife.
I want to end this depressions and all my addictions
But it keeps pulling me harsh, until it pulls me too far into a darker marsh.

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I'M AFRAID
by- Holly
 
I play hard to get
But secretly I want you just as you want me
But I'm afraid
You tell me I'm your heart's desire
but the question is-
What's more important?
Weed?
Or Me?
You kissed me with a mouth that nightly touches a joint
I'm afraid.
stop!
What if you don't? Is that your question?
You'll loose me, and your life.
Think about that the next time you light up.
Look inside the flame of your match.
Do you see me?
Of course not.
You just see the pleasure of getting high.
I don't give up and you don't give in.
An unsightly pair, huh?
One of us has to change.
It won't be me.
I'm still afraid.
Do you still want to hold me close?
Kiss my lips?
Feel me in an embrace?
And wipe away my tears?
Forget it!
You're the cause of those tears
And your "Habit" is why I push you away
I don't want to embrace smoke
Or taste the pot that lingers on your strawberry lips
Don't expect me at your funeral.
It's soon.
What would be the point in watching YOU buried?
I'd rather watch a box of matches burn.
I'm still so afraid.

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LOVE CAN'T FIX EVERYTHING
by:Alyssa Ferlo
 
She bites her lip
In an attempt to hold it in.
But tears flood down her face
As she turns and faces him.
 
She looks down at the floor.
She can't look him in the eye.
She's been dreading the day
When they'd have to say good-bye.
 
He takes a step closer.
She almost turns away.
She can't stop thinking
Of the price she has to pay.
 
She finally looks up.
He wraps his arms around her.
She clings to him
And the emotions he stirs.
 
He loves her
Like she loves him.
But she's made some mistakes.
Now it's the end.
 
"I love you," she whispered.
"I love you, too," he replied.
"But love can't fix everything," he said,
Looking her in the eye.
 
"Farewell for now," he said
Giving her one last hug.
"But I'm addicted to you!"
You're like my drug,"
 
"Drugs are bad," he explained
Walking away.
She watched him go
Wishing he'd stay.
 
She walks on home
Locks the door to her room.
Letting her tears fall
And drowning in her own doom.

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SCARS OF LIFE
Pauline Denise Horne
Sitting here nothing but you on my mind.You are the treasure I never
thought I'd find.I know God sent you to me,I shall wait until your free.
I use to complain my life has been so rough. I didn't understand why I was always alone. I never had anyone to lean on.I felt like I had been done wrong.Cheated out of a loving family and a home.I cried millions of tears.
I felt betrayed for many years.In my life I have been giving,caring right from the start.Always doing for others sincerely from my heart.I was
rebellious at first.lonley and hurt.But finally that anger came to an end.
That's when Jesus became my best friend.And ooh what a friend I have in him.He sent you to me my rare and precious gem.More desirable than gold.
He sent you me to love and to hold.To share precious moments,keepsake
memories when we grow old.So I proudly wear the scars I recieved during my life.Each and every one was worth it, the day you came into my life!!!
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Sun...Storm... Sun

Carly
The oceans mist upon my face,
seagulls flying with an elegant grace.
 
A storm is brewing out at sea,
to stop the sun from shining on me.
 
Clouds start to form and the sun is now gone,
the rain keeps on pouring past tomorrow's dawn.
 
The water out there isn't a sea or an ocean,
it's a giant force of water with continuous motion.
 
Waves are 30 feet high and they touch the sky,
no surfers are out, they'd be afraid they would die.
 
All I want is this rain to go,
nothings worse than it, except snow.
 
Sun come out wherever you are,
please come out and show the world who you are. 
 
Just then, by the ocean you see,
the sun came out and started shining with glee.
 
Everybody stopped and people stared to see,
that they beautiful sun was shining on me.

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Midnite
Kari Jordan
Around this time women wonder while men wander
Right before that a promise was made
Scars lead to bars if you ask me: The woman was fed up
Worry not shall I cause Iím stable and able to please whatís mines
Around midnite women cry while men lie
Worry not shall I cause Iím steady and ready to give him what he needs
Right before that the bed was laid
But who accompanied those clean white sheets?
Worry not shall I cause Iím reared and geared towards whatever angle he turns
You understand?
Midnite is the time when most fuss and fight
While midnite is the time that we make things right
Letís not wait til midnite
Right before that the curtains fade
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Her Shadow
Jaclyn Rodriguez

She lives in the shadows,
her own special place,
so the sun will not mock her,
with its happy face,
she dwells in the darkness,
so her soul wanders free,
from the horrible truth,
of reality,
she isolates herself,
so that she may hid,
the devil with in her,
the demon inside!

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WHAT I'M NOT
Wayne Coro
I'm glad I'm not President,
Too much stress.
I'm glad I'm not a Waiter,
I don't know how to dress.
I'm glad I'm not a Boxer,
I don't know how to fight.
I'm glad I'm not a Mattress Tester,
I cant sleep all night.
I'm glad I'm not a Tutor,
I don't get good grades.
I'm glad I'm not a Scientist,
I can't cure aids.
My life may be kind of crappy
But hey what do I care,
               I'm Happy

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