OPEN MIC ENCORE I
July, 2004

OPEN MIC ENCORE II July

 

Dedicated To: My loving Father
From        : Your only Son   We'll never forget you!
Kenneth 

A father I never had, but a father I always knew.
Times are so sad now that I live in this world without you.
I know I have to hold on and stay strong, but now that your gone my heart is feeling all alone.
It seems as just yesterday I was hearing you're voice on the phone,
Now I'm standing over you're grave talking to a stone.
I never had a chance to say goodbye.
Dad, why was it you that had to die?
Now that you're gone I can never release the pain inside.
It will stay forever and until the end of time.
What am I going to do?
I'm losing my mind without you.
The pain will never sooth; why was it you that I had to lose?
When they put you in the hole,
Right then you took a piece with you,
That was my heart and soul.
I feel so cold on the inside.
Something I never got to say before you died,
Dad, I Love You and that's no lie.

-0-
 

Dying. Crying. Goodbye-ing. Why do we do this? The days go on and on. And we thnik your not gonna survive another hour. But you do. And they think it's okay. But it's not. It never is. Next day you die, and we cry. we die. Inside. It's never okay. It's always too late. To say goodbye. 'Coz

the next day, we fear your gonna die. It goes on and on like this. It never ends. Why can't Mum and Dad just be friends? 

tillie phillips

-0-

"SO MANY REASONS"  
-  Dedicated to a very special girl, Shena

David Alexander II
 
There are so many reasons why I feel the way I do;
There are so many reasons why my heart keeps wanting you;
The intangible thingsÖ the smiling and laughing just making my internal world want you more;
I like everything about you, you are what I have been waiting for;
If I wasnít afraid to love I know that I would love you;
If I wasnít afraid to get hurt I would tell these feelings I have of you;
I know I shouldnít feel this way, its almost like itís a sin;
This is not a game to me, so I donít care if I win;
I just need you to know my heart;
Thatís basically all I wanted from the start;
I have been dreaming of you and the evanescence of your love;
These feelings that im feeling, its like there are sent from above;
There are just so many reasons,i cannot explain;
When i think about them it just gives me pain;
because i cant be with u the way i want to be;
to be with you is my only plea.

-0-

From an infant to a toddler,
From adolescence up to now.
There was an empty place inside of me
That needed you somehow.
 
Is love predetermined?
For I know we have free will,
To choose the paths we walk upon,
To move forward or stand still.
 
Each day is filled with choices,
Choose to rise or choose to sleep.
I choose to see what each day brings,
Choose to laugh and choose to weep.
 
All of these I can control,
Still I believe it is not chance,
The one we are meant to be with,
Is not merely circumstance.
 
Of all the things I choose in life,
There is one thing I know,
I had no choice in loving you,
It was determined long ago

David Allen Jackson

-0-

I want more than anything to be in your arms,
But a heart is a delicate thing.
I don't know how much more breaking mine can take.
I want to be able to trust you,
My heart says yes, but my head says no.
All the nice things you say you feel,
But how do I know all this is real?
You seem to read me so well,
Is that the beginning, how do we tell?
While I'm still trying to find myself
Your extra years have given you so much more wealth.
So much time you're willing to invest
You have to be sure I'm worth it; and when you go out west,
Its quite possible you will never come back.
Will I be left hanging like a useless potato sack?
Its not good enough to know you want me near,
When inside I'll feel like a deep endless crater.
Many days after that will be spent wondering,
Why life is so cruel, why can't i be with you.
In the end we'll discover its just a test,
Everything always works out for the best.
So that's where we stand, now that its clear,
We have to make sure time won't be thrown out the window.

Cristina Vagni

-0-

A FRIEND
BY CONAN B NORTON
                       To know you are suffering
                       The tears i weep for you
                       The good and bad times we had.
 
                         Oh how i will miss you
                        but i will always carry your memory
                        My heart will never forget you
                        and the 3 months we had together.
 
                         When death calls i will be thinking of you,
                         I'm sorry for the things i said,
                          I WAS WRONG TO SAY THEM .
 
                          But i will always look to the good times
                          Remember me ,and i of you.
 

-0-

ESSENCE
FREDA
Everything stood uncompared letting time constantly be memory
Essence of me as i look vainly put-together and think no more of it
Be the river that flowed passed or the moon that stood
amongst the dark in a sky to be beauty
Voicing out things that i thought i was
That stars through themselves at the night sky
Knowing you are there never made me know your names
to tell you apart
Remembering when i never studied my essence
In times of hurt and throwing away things that just stood
to cover an whole in my soul
That moon comes to greet the sun and time between when everything
stands still
Borrowing nature plain purity never needing to be pompous
beauty unmentioned
Things that some never grow past acceptance
And when you ask me what it means i will never describe it
to your feel
never describe it to your depth only something that hurt
my heart and resurfaces emotionally.

-0-

   REAL DREAM
Anashen Navasartian
I saw you right next to me
You were holding my hand
Tight, tight as if you were scared,
Scared of losing me.
You liked looking into my eyes,
As if you could see something,
Something which lies deep inside me.
I could never thought of closing my eyes,
Closing my eyes and forbid you to reach my heart.
But I never closed, never closed and never forbid.
You were there right when I needed you,
Even when someone else took my heart and threw it away.
When you put your arms around me, made me feel a warmth, a real warmth.
The sweet words which you murmured into my ear, made me feel I was living a reality.
But suddenly I woke up,
I woke up, and I saw it was just a dream.

-0-

T*H*E ~ M*I*S*S*I*N*G ~ L*O*V*E
by: DANNY COOK
 
I've Heard All Is To Whisper ~ & Felt All Is To See,
From The Silence Of My Prayers So Sure ~ To The Dreams I Came To Believe,
& As The Nights Laid In Darkness ~ As Nothing Was To Touch Love So Near,
Until I Felt Your Heart Of A Kiss ~ To Make The Magic Reappear,
But As Something Still Feels So Empty,
& The Secrets Vanished To Think,
Until Time Of Tests Lead To Find Me . . . . .
T*H*E ~ M*I*S*S*I*N*G ~ L*O*V*E,
Of A Golden Link! 

-0-

Who Am I
Holly
Who am I to kiss your lips
To hold your hand in mine
I'm not your friend, nor your acquaintance
I'm simply a girl, longing for your touch
Wanting to be held, needing all your love
Hoping soon, I'll wake up from this dream
This dream of life with out you

-0-

MISSING YOU
                 By, Victoria Mendoza

Just the other day I passed a place that reminded me of you. It took me back to our memories just like dejavu.
Now you're on my mind and I can't seem to forget. I wish you were still here so I could tell you how much you've meant.
Your smile on those bad days was the light on my path to brighten my way.
Your eyes and their sparkle when you looked into mine always seemed to send shivers all down my spine.
I'm not much of a joke teller but when I said one, We'd both laugh together though we knew it was dumb.
It's so much different now, you're miles away.
No more looking in your eyes I can only hear the words you say.
I should have told you how I felt when I had the chance,
I should have poured my heart out to you then. . .instead I'm DREAMING of romance.
You've always meant the world to me, and I don't think you even knew.
I wish you were looking at me face to face, cause right now I'd tell you so.
You've been there throughout the many changes in my life, and never made me doubt, that you are an exceptional person that I could never live without.
So to you I say this one last thing, and hopefully you'll never forget,
I love you forever and always, and for you I was meant....

-0-

SHE KISSED ME
                          By Michael Bassford
             
                 she kissed me, beneath the starry skies
               she kissed me, moonlight shining in her eyes
               she kissed me, and i floated from the ground
                 she kissed me, my soul leapt up unbound
                 she kissed me, it will never go away
                she kissed me, and until my dieing day
                     you will always hear me say
                           she kissed me.
                       

-0-

"ETERNAL PARADISE"
Jordan Bratton
The gray sky looms with threatening storm clouds
As water droplets fall slowly upon the house windows
But the fire inside provides a feeling of temporary assurance
Lying beneath a blanket I yearn for you to return to me
Anxiously I await your homecoming long past-due
My eyes begin to strain as I longingly stare at the front door
Yet at the mere muffle of your key turning in the door
I become enlivened and spiritedly run to greet you with love
Your haggard expression and drenched clothes show your weariness
Nevertheless I smile with happiness and usher you into our home
Closing the door I lovingly insist you put on something dry
Ignoring my suggestions you kiss me softly on the nape of my neck
With a weakened will I try again to suggest that which is good for you
But my words come out mumbled with your finger placed upon my lips
Silently hushing me with small gestures and a cunning grin
Annoyed, I fold my arms and show a skeptical expression - which fades away
As my body slowly gives into your sensual passion ≠ into eternal paradise...

-0-

WAIT
       - by Ganesh Manikandan
 
Like a lover who is hurting and loath to part
would miss those moments spent with his heart's consort...
 
Like a train that speeds past squalid hovels
would miss children that wave and smile despite their fate so cruel...
 
Like a flower that blooms as a new dawn breaks
would miss an audience to eulogize its limitless grace...
 
Like a contrite man who has committed an unwitting crime
would miss the power to travel back in time..
 
I miss you my love, right by my side
as minutes pass by of unfulfilled promises we were not meant to bide...

-0-

Unspoken
Sarah
The love for a friend remains.
But she sits, not saying a word, pretending everything is fine
Putting on the fake plastic smile she wears everyday
Denying her feelings, a bit longer as the pain slowly consumes her.
 
She would die to know he loved her,
She would do anything, go anywhere,
She would risk everything to be by his side,
Except losing him as a friend.
 
Is it worth the risk? Losing a friend, a best friend?
Just to let them know how you truly feel?
To tell them that you canít live a day without them,
That they mean everything to you,
That even the smallest things about them captivate you,
The wind through their hair, a smile, a laugh.
 
Well, this girl will sit quietly, words unspoken,
Love secretly pledged,
In hopes that one day, he will find the words to say what she could not.
 

-0-

My Father
Edwin Flores
 
It's been two years since we first met
I've come to know and won't forget
that without you who called my name
lost was my cause, now not the same
 
Your grace given to me who asks
why would you toil with all that tasks
my soul  today unworthy of
blessings from you my God above
 
What could one offer  to you my  King
Father of life what could I bring
to you the Morning Star  that holds
the peace we need that your hands mold
 
Worn, battered by worldy storms
you gave me drink and now reborn
is once what was a faithless man
forgiveness yours no longer damned
 
My gift to you is what you see
my church family  those you set free
who hungered and in search of one
Jesus our Lord, my Christ, God's son
 
Happy Fathers Day To The Father Of Fathers
                             Jesus Christ

-0-

Because you lied
How many times have I asked you,
How many times can you answer,
How long will it take you,
To finally speak the truth.
 
To finally speak the truth
To finally stop lying,
To finally have an answer,
For once that's not a lie.
 
For once that's not a lie,
For once you'd look at me,
For once you'd understand,
How much it is I love you.
 
How much it is I love you,
How much it is I care,
How much that I hate you,
Because you lied to me AGAIN.

Krissy 

-0-

when I am not there
  RAY
                             When I am not there,
                         nobody would shade a drop of tear,
                         nobody would ever remember,
       
                             When I am not there,
                         the sea would still roar,
                         the garden would still be
                         full with blooming flower,
     
                              When I am not there,
                          sun would still rise and set,
                          birds would go back to their nest,
                          Sky would be moonlit and with the twinkling star,
 
                                When I am not there,
                          there would still be the morning choir,
                          sweeping the road and the floor,
                          the boy at the corner selling
                          the roses,other flower,
 
                               When I am not there,
                          there would sill be village fair,
                          the small girl with an ice candy full of cheer,
                  the dreaming young farmer,buying the plough,rainy wear,
 
                              When I am not there,
                           mill furnace would still be on fire,
                           the machines would still be on production gear,
                          Sweat smell of toilers would still be in the air,
                          in roadside eateries,people would still pour,
 
                          When I am not there,
                        just remember,here was one full of love forever,
                        for all that makes life so beautiful,
                        the little girl going to school,
                        one hand caught by the tiny brother,
                        or the small boy with handful of books and paper,
                      the groups of small children,eating the midday meal.

-0-

I love you
I want to thank you for healing my heart
only to make me feel loved
you kissed my tears goodbye
and made me love you
you've changed my ways
only for me to know that he's not the only one
you've given me a chance to love again and
I promise that you'll be the only one in my life
I love to hear you say sweet things
and say "I love you"
"I love you too"
you've hugged me
and only comforted me
you've erased my past relationships
and made them look like nothing
i want to thank you
by telling you I'll always be yours forever
you've become my lover
my everything
I love you!

ms.smokey

-0-

My Confession
Ashly Golden
Every time you look at me.
Every time you stare.
Every time you touch me.
I wonder if you care.
You don't want to say it,
But I see it in your eye.
Sometimes when I see you it almost makes me cry.
Why can't you make up your mind?
Your true feelings are what I want to find.
Not what your friends think, nor mine.
If we stay friends, I promise that's fine.
We were friends from the very start,
But is there more?
If there is it'd make my heart soar!
I'm so tired of playin these games!
Please don't run away in shame!
I QUIT!
I feel like throwing a fit!
Playing this game makes me feel like ****!!!
I love you and you love me,
But where is is it going to go?
Should I let my true feelings show?
So here I am to confess my heart,
I've loved you from the very start.
All I want to know is how you feel.
Is what we have really real?
But then again we don't have anything do we?
Should we make something of it or just let it be?
So now it's all up to you,
What are we going to do?
My confession is over,
I've blown my cover.
I love you!

-0-

No Happy Endings
Jesse Bilbay 
Alone in the dark
Trying to find my way out
Doing my best
Not to scream and shout
Down in the hole
That's as empty as my life
Without you right here
As my loving wife
My mind is a blank
With life without you
I just couldn't tell you
What i'm going to do
Feeling so empty
My heart is so dead
From everything you have wrote
And the tings that you said
Beginning to understand
What it's like to die inside
Can't run from these feelings
It's no use to hide
There are no happy endings
There is no brighter day
And there's nothing, nothing
That anyone can say
To make me feel better
To get on with my life
Cause I loved you so
When you were my wife

-0-

MISSING YOU
Skatey White
I will always miss you, I know that I can't help it. Hatred bursts inside of me, cutting me, breaking me. When have I tortured you, hurt you, bullied you? Why are you killing me? Why are you draining me? I miss you so much, I need you to love. Feelings of hatred and embarrassment, it's killing me, choking me. I know that you don't want me, but I can't let go.
I'm missing you. Are you missing me too?

-0-

MOMENT
Ruben Rodriguez
 
One moment endures to timeless end,
Captured and embraced until forever's end.
Sustaining me now to hold on true,
Nourishing my soul like nothing I ever knew.
Fulfilling my life and strengthening my will,
Pushing me forward to this very day still.
Enduring the pressing day that lowers my head,
Lending your smile amidst all of the dread.
Uplifting my heart to swelling devotion,
Filling my eyes with watery emotion.
Exhausting the mind and body close follows,
Until the next moment sounds in a whisper low.
All of my love I give to you,
I choose to spend my life with you.
I proclaim to the world of my heart's torment,
I am bound to your love with each passing moment.

-OPEN MIC ENCORE II July

 

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