OPEN MIC ENCORE
May, 2004

 

My only refuge when your cruelty strikes
is hope,
which I have clutched so blindly
that even in eternity the end will never find me.
 
By Tali McNeill

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In The Streets
Sitting in the dark feeling
the coldness of the rain.
Tucked in a box to hold
and shelter my self.
My clothes all ripped from
head to toe.
Lonely without embrace.
Food from the trash to help
my hunger.
Sitting in the streets
for all to wonder.
 
Rhonda Renae Van Horn

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Unscarred
Daniel Caissy January 2004
Dreams of dark angels overwhelms me,
another raging night to overcome.
Come and put your hate deep into me,
let's dance with my new found demons.
 
The days have become unfaithfully framed.
plead your case and kneel down for me.
 You can try but I will remain untamed,
 you can try but you will never break me.
 
I will be unscarred.
 
You can tell me lies,
you can tell me lies,
you can stab me hard,
but I will be unscarred.
 
Old blood is flowing back into me,
 my mind is fading away just like before.
You can't come inside and fucking eat me,
go away now I can't stand you anymore.
 
I will be unscarred.
 
You can tell me lies,
you can tell me lies,
you can stab me hard,
but I will be unscarred.
 
Old feelings are crawling back into me,
I won't be the one who drowns deep into you.
my eyes are shut but I see so clearly.
Go away now... I f*cking hate you.
 
You can tell me lies,
you can tell me lies,
you can stab me hard,
but I will be unscarred.
 
....I will be unscarred.
 

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Understand
shanna yakima
The things i go through no one understand, when I need help no one is there to give me a hand.  But then you think you understand.  When i try to tell my problems and I hear is so and.  Sometimes my body and mind is so weak that I can't even stand, but who is going to be there to hold me up and give me a hand.  But then again you say you understand. I wake up wondering if my day will change.  I can change the frame but the picture remains the same. People see me and already want to judge.  They don't want to get to know me, but want to hold a grudge.  They chit and chat say this and that. But you know what I don't care, the positive things about me they don't want to hear. you could never understand.  When you do then maybe you can give me a hand, then together we can stand.  But for right now all i'm going to hear is so and.  Believe me you will never understand.

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The dark moon is out
It is really chilly out
The dark moon is out

Lynnea

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The Fiery Ladder of Truth
Jazmin Berona
If all hatred for you were turned to fire
Oh how you’d see my laughter then.
All the world would be in flames.
At that moment you’d see my hatred
As I sang my elegy in requiem.
 
I heard your laughter as I cried.
All those kind words you said
I knew they were all lies
Why I solemnly believed them,
I do not know
All I know is that my hands are around your throat
And I think I hate you…
 
I’ve forgotten what the meaning was
Of endings and beginnings
I’ve forgotten how it feels
When winter turns to spring.
I’ve forgotten what it looks like…
Not the shadows,, but the light.
I’ve forgotten how to live…
And I have an idea why..
 
I know you might not have meant to
I know people make mistakes
But these mistakes
Have just caused too much pain
 
So when you hold someone else in your arms
I hope she doesn’t get hurt by your ignorance
I’ve taken that road, and don’t wish to go back
I now wish to walk towards the light
 
I’ve always appreciated the darker side of life
So this is just a small step
Up the ladder of truth
I hope to reach
When I die.

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Fallen Angel
 
A fallen angel she deemed her so
The look on her face is of woe.
Angry at the world she seems,
Her heart as cold as steel.
 
Her life is a sad story
Details of her fall gory.
Cast among demons who defiled her,
Like flames from a solid red ember.
 
Pale blue eyes she possess
And beautiful chestnut brown tresses,
A smile to hide the pain,
A soul screaming in vain.
 
Like a flower blooming in April storm
Only to die out in the morn.
Slowly wilting when everyone's blooming in May,
Her life slowly fades away.
 
Marc A. Cid

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As I take my last breath,
there is so many things i want to say
to tell you I loved you
to tell you I cared
 
Please come with me,
I'm so afraid
I'm still not ready to go away
But I know what's gonna happen
I know today's the end
I just need a friend to come with me this day
 
My heart heart goes each time faster,
Oh, God what does that mean?
Someone please tell me, Am i going to live?
If something's gonna happen, let it happen right now,
'Cus I cannot stand the pain, why is there so much sound?
 
So many people around me
That I can't recognize
Some of them shouting
Some of them have cried
 
Oh, please, God have mercy
save me right now,
take me with you
oh, just do it, come on
 
Suddenly a bright light blinds me forever
Now is the end,
I don't feel the pain
I've wasted my life, for war
I'm gone far away, so people, don't miss me
'Cus I'm with you,
Specially today

floremar

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The Death Song
Vina Mullins
My days are getting shorter,
but my path is rather long,
my hands begin to tremble,
and I can hear the Ol' death song.
 
My face is very pale,
and i feeling very weak,
i don't have much time,
and i can barely speak.
 
I'm leaving now,
but don't you worry,
because we will meet again one day,
but please live your life there is no hurry.

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ON MY OWN
David Clelland
Down and alone is the way I feel
None understands me no one really knows me
Down and alone is the way I feel
No one cares about no one wants to know me
I sit in front of my computer
Talk to unreal friends
They don’t really know me
Can never understand me
I talk and talk and talk
Like talking to myself
Feel like i'm a kid
With a teddy as my friend

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LIFE
ZACHARY L MILLER
Some call this life!
What are they thinking?
It is full of misery and strife,
Many turn to drinking.
Others live by the blade of a knife.
Know matter what we are all sinking,
And will soon end this thing we call life!

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-The Dead will rise.-
-Stien Feast IX
The sky filled with amber hue screams
calling out to the ash and burnt ways of life
asking for forgiveness and fear
asking for peace and distance.
 
The land drags it's feet and shakes in anger
throwing rocks for an act of trespass
who would stop a beast of such size
who would walk in places it can't go.
 
The wind runs so fast, cutting its own back
swirling so fast it lifts everyone up to look
asking for dominance in it's alley
asking for control of the uncontrollable.
 
The ocean swells like a demon of girth
suffocating all who would dare stand in its way
who would hold against this goliath
who would part fate with this wall.
 
The flesh scatters and runs all about
fighting against each other for their own pound
will you want your own
will you fight the urge.
 
Who will you be.
 
Where will you be.
 
When the dead will rise.
 
When the dead will walk.

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MEMORIES
pat royce
 
Share music and flowers with your parents
These are memories that never fade
Remember your Mothers favourite perfume
Your Fathers after shave
share your smile liberally
And smile with your eyes
For these are the gifts of soul
We'll remember all our lives

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STAY POSITIVE
                             By: Theresa Berry
 
Cast out those things that cause you pain.
Let go of the past and allow room for the future.
Do not isolate your potential.
Obtain your goals by looking forward.
Keep pushing through the rejections and focus on the glory.
One day your life will change.
 
Motivation is the key to success.
Keep trying and never give up.
Dreams can become reality.
Hard work and dedication are the tools.
Use them to obtain your desires.
Whatever you may endeavor, always stay strong and have faith.
Keep your chin up and your eyes focused.
One day you'll see the life you deserve, it will be yours.
 
I'm Positive.

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Alone Again
D. Jay Russell
 
Sun slips into sea
Orange is swallowed by darkness
Alone consumes me again

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Confused-
 meaghan reynolds               
 
                     Sunshine on a cloudy night
                     Rainfall not a cloud in sight
                     Nothing makes sense anymore
                     All my words wash to shore
                     How can i live and be confused
                     these things i used to refuse
                     fallin' until i die but why try
                     Sometimes i wonder if i'll ever
                     shed a tear
                     Sometimes i wish that the whole
                     world would disappear
                     Maybe a mistake will make it
                     somewhat clear
                     these things i ask myself year after year
                     These things i used th refuse
                     And yet still day after day i live Confused 

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Silenced Cries
Bathsheba Brutus
My soul cries silent cries
…it cries invisible tears
…it smiles upside down
 
My soul cries silent cries
…silent, deafening cries
…screeching, heart-breaking cries
…silent cries
 
My soul cries invisible tears
…invisible, dry tears
…acidic, burning tears
…invisible tears
 
My soul smiles upside down
…upside down smile…beautiful isn’t it?

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Mirage of Hope

cecilia chong
I’ve been down for days,
not knowing what get in the way.
the night’s without a light,
all alone in fright.
 
All I can do is pray;
without a promise
it will take you there.
 
It’s a million try,
before it comes alive.
 
still it’s worth a hope,
though hard to cope;
that’s the mirage of hope.

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Evil Games
   -Shantell Thomas
I'm sick of all the games we play
losing everyday
Nothing that I can say
 
I'm sick of all the s*** you do
Knelling before you
I guess you knew
 
I cry
Because you lie
Don't dare to look you in the eye
 
You made me fall
Reduced to a crawl
you took it all
 
With your knife
You took my life

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No More Tears
K.C.Colt 
There will be no more tears in Heaven,
No more cryin'
No more sickness there,
No more sorrow or shame,
When gather around the thrown,
To crown or Beloved King,
And as Mahalia sings,
To the Glory of God,
There will be no more tears
To Shed.
Glory, glory, holy, holy holy
God Almighty we sing!
Tears ain't enough
For tears of joy in Heaven.

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L´Appartement; exile
Daniel Heath
I think I’ll leave
Someplace ecliptic
A place where you were never born
The place where I can breathe easy;
Exile
And on reflection
You were oh so cold
Enraptured with denial
So sweet and so tempting
Crimson in my foolish eyes
I gasp a sigh of complacency;
Exile
Maybe I’ll leave tomorrow
Incited in a way by this cruel silence
To someplace exotic
The place we always dreamed of;
Exile
I think I’ll…
I’ll leave forever

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I am so tired
so tired of being scared..
can't share my feelings
don't want to be bare.
 
Bare to the world
to see all my pain..
I keep reliving my past
feeling so ashamed.
 
Ashamed of who I am
and what I stand for..
that of being your victim
how I wanted so much more.
 
More out of life
expected more out of myself..
more that what I have become
but these were the cards I have been dealt.
 
You have stolen from me my innocence
my trust, my pride..
now anyone I love
gets to enjoy this painful ride.
 
This painful ride of sorrow
of loneliness, of blue..
after all these years I realize
it is all because of you.
 
I know someday I will overcome
and one day will be strong..
knowing now, it was never me
it was you all along.

tkrall

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In the End:
Monica Gibson
Blood drips onto the carpet
Your hand is shaking as you try to pull away
But it?s as if a magnetic force is urging you not to stop
There is no way to hide it
Your arm is red and swollen
When people ask
You blame it on your cat
And the sad thing is that they believe you
Your life is plummeting down a cliff
Your mom thinks you're fat; your dad could care less if you existed
But in the end, it can only be good or bad
It is your choice to make, and make it you shall
In the end

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"-NO ONE HERE-"
 MEAGHAN REYNOLDS
 
     HOW AM i SUPPOSED TO BREATH IF THERE IS NO ONE HERE?
      TO HELP ME SURVIVE MY WORST FEARS.
     HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE IF NOTHING ELSE IS NEAR?
     MONSTERS SCREAMING-
     NO GOOD DREAMING
     THEN THEY'RE GONE.
     THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO SOOTH THE PAIN.
     THE PAIN THAT LIVES INSIDE , THAT'S IN MY BRAIN.
     BUT I GUESS I'M TO BLAME;
     WITH MY ISOLATED WAYS.
     STICKING TO MYSELF ALWAYS.
     ALL THAT I KNOW IS THAT I'M ALONE-
     SO THEREFORE MY OWN STORY CAN'T BE TOLD.
     TOO MUCH TIME- AND ALL IS MINE.
     LOST IN MY OWN WORLD AWAY FROM HERE.
     WITH PAPER FLOWERS AND ALL THINGS I INDEER.
     I'LL NEVER ESCAPE I'M INTENDED TO STAY THERE;
     IN MY WORLD WHERE NOTHING INTERFEARS.
     I SIT HERE SHOWERING IN TEARS'
     'CAUSE I'M ALONE AND NO ONE ELSE IS HERE.

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An Ending
jaburdick
In the empire of light, the king is Death.
As he moves in space, time shows all his wake.
Dark is his image, more hot than the sun.
Still faster he moves, each race he has won.
 
Even Chaos quakes and man too, does shake
For when the light shifts so slowly to red
Nothing is found dead, nothing more to make.
No longer reason for mankind to dread.
Nothing but silence then to partake

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Are you there?
Pamela Thompson 
It hurts inside where nobody can see
Similes on the outside, but let me be
Asking, wanting.  Is that all?
Worry anymore I just might fall
Hiding quietly in my own space
Hoping you find me before I go to waste
The tears have stopped but yet they come out
I think you get the message but I  have doubt
Why can't you see me hurt?!
Because I hide it such as grass does dirt
A precious moment, small, happiness sneaks in
But just as quickly it leaves as it begins
Why does life get so hard?
Bills, kids, marriage--I feel bar'd
What about me, do I have a say?
About what I do--my time for play?
My time is coming for my rejoice
But until then I don't have a choice
I'm stuck here in my state of mind
There is no help for me to find

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                           Not Worth It
     This poem is dedicated to anyone who thinks about suicide. Remember nothing is worth dieing for.
Katie

Just yesterday we were laughing and playing. You said you loved me and that i was the only one for you. but now i sit on the bench and watch you say the same things to another girl, as you kiss and hug her. Tears are streming down my face as i run home crying. I know your the only one i will ever love but i know you don't feel the same. I sit on my bed a right a letter to my mom and dad i tell them i love them and it isn't their fault.An hour later my dad comes home finds me hangin from the wall tears run from his face as he cuts me down and reads the note i left for him and mom. Now i sit in heaven and wish he would stop regreting i did what i did. Now i know it wasn't worth it but its to late.


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She cut deeper and deeper as he blood poured to the floor.
She cut into a black hole of nothingness as she screamed out
her pain.
She peeled her skin off inch by inch wishing that she didnt have
to live another day and always trying to make her wish come true

Amy

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How could you, why did you ever say,
you love me so much and then push me away.
I gave you my trust, my life and my love,
you used me, abused me, gave me a shove.
you hurt me so much in every way,
how could you think I would ever stay.
Now I know what I am going to do,
you and I now are finally through.
As I paddle out, I feel the cold breeze,
I jump in and feel my body freeze.
I am no longer that poor girl you raped,
I am the girl that finally escaped.

wackyjackie

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WHO AM I?
TONYA MCGINNIS
When I look at myself, I see someone in side of me.
Who tells me something everyday just be yourself instead of someone else.
Be yourself other wise no one will like you.
Let people find out who you really are.
Because if you don't how will people know who you really are!
One thing I know is don't judge yourself god made you the way you are!!
That is what's important.
Don't let anyone fool you of who you are.

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suffer
-bd-
 
id like to suffer with you, for
one more eternity
one more efficient moment
in the lineup of time
mark & repeat, redo until
perfect. use dialect and intellect
to intersect intercourse
with no remorse continue
adventure; entertain,
absorb the pain and receive
retrieve me when i am gone,
i will be in pieces

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I look around
Everything is a new possibility, a new adventure
I see the world
Through a dreamer's eyes
I look around
Everything is new and strange, full of surprise
I see the world
Through a child's eyes
I look around
Everything is exciting, full of challenge
I see the world
Through an adventurer's eyes
I look around
But what is the point
Of seeing through eyes not my own?
Oh yeah- because with my own I see only
Nothing. Despair. Emptiness.
So I look around and see the world
Through the world's eyes.

Kate Marwell

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TEARS OF DREAD
Noemi A. Cisneros
 
Grief settles at home
yet no one seems to care
how can they do that?
how do they dare?
 
A crying child sits at home
as his mother the next child beats
he thinks - when will this stop
when did she become this horrible beast?
 
This crying child sits at home
not knowing who to tell
with no one to turn to
not knowing who can help.

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 "Time"
Tonia Wright
Time rages on in my world never ending,
fantasy and reality colliding, sanity descending.
My decision's are mangled in this mess of a head,
can't tell the difference between the living and dead.
The rift has grown wider, the damage is done. I dance
in the dark while my world is collapsing. Time goes on
it just won't end, the mirror has broken it lashes my
skin. Time rages on the hour is at hand, reality is over
the nightmare has began.

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This Heart Of Mine
Written by: Edwin Flores
Beat it does for her it thrives
For years long past where our goodbye
was never seen yet it did end
This Heart of mine it's need to mend
 
Pain withstood where loneliness
Keeps company our meaningless
life without her now deprived
empty my heart dormant it lies
 
Although it beats a scar it bares
pictures of her of us and where
special this love it holds as if
she will return, our love her gift
 
It keeps a watch for her it seeks
the beats grow less growing more weak
for without one it once did know
our life will end , deaths knock bestowed

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 Why Won't You Love Me?
Jean 
You are so perfect,
So honest, so true.
It's not hard to realize
Just why I love you.
We're not meant to be together,
Or else you would be.
We're not meant to love each other,
Or else you'd love me.

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SILENT
 
There’s a justice here, a silent judge and jury . no words are left just water, constant rain. I find no shelter  from the raw emotion .Even the lights are not bright enough to see, and the air is not enough for me to breath….ANGEL

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Wish upon a Lucky Star
Tigist
I asked my lucky star to make my wish come true.
I must have not wish hard enough,
for i'm still missing you.
With everyday that passed
I try to forget your smile,
Your gentle tough and tender kiss.
makes each worth a while.
The star i wished you on tonight
didn't make my fantasy come true
because you are still far away
and i'm still missing you.

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"My Child"
Written after the birth of a beloved child
 
There were two of you
Before you came through
The passage from the
Bowels of the earth
As your mother gave
Birth to you on that
Summer night.
 
And now, with
Your cheeks so
Rosy red, I lay
In bed and wonder
Who made you so
Perfectly without blemish.
 
I answer my
Question by myself
Because knowledge
As such is too much
For me to grasp
As you gasp your
Next breath and
I my last.
 
Arnold Moeliker

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life sucks but don't give up without a fight
you sit at home alone and can't find any light
i can't believe you gave up at the end of the night
life sucks but i wont give up without a fight

kriston seiber
april 2004

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LET HIM IN
 Sharon

when everything has gone wrong
when your strength is not too strong
when true love has broke your heart
when your dreams are ripped apart
you run in circles trying to find
something that will ease your mind
God's the answer to it all
seek Him out He'll break your fall
once you feel His warm embrace
you'll know there's safety in that place
you'll be able to see things clear
let go of anger...let go of fear
once God's spirit enters you inside
you'll free yourself from foolish pride

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